i knew it wouldnt last forever, but id just rather enjoy the moment and forget about the fact that we'll fall off the cliff later. it still brought me down everytime i see her alone. when we talked it was the worse thing ever. we really only talked when she felt like it and stopped when she got tired of me talking about stuff she didnt care about. it was dreadful. i just wanted to be like her other friends, where she actually enjoyed their company, and made her laugh and smile and all i could do was try to call her like every month or so only to hear the voicemail woman again. there was sometimes when she did answer, when nobody was texting her anymore. and it wasnt the same. never was. i remember when it was her birthday. everyone gave her her presents and money, while i was empty handed, only to say happy birthday, stumbuling on every word. later that night i called her and she actually answered. we relived a night as if it was a year ago. we caught up with everything execpt relationship status, i tried to keep it away from there. she said she was tired, and that she was gonna have a busy day tommorow. knowing she sometimes goes to work with her family, we hanged up. a few minutes later she texts me; "thanks for making me smile for the last moments of my birthday (:" turns out i ended smiling more than she probably did.
