I've messed up a lot. A LOT. Because I've lied so much I've lost my mom's trust. Do you realize how hard that is to do? Very. She gave BIRTH to me. So either I'm a sociopath or retarded. No offense to anyone. I feel awful about it. My mom still gave me freedom to be online because she's amazing. I couldn't of ever found a better mom. I blame no one but myself because who else is there to blame? My bff? My ex-boyfriend? Nope. Just myself. I've tried this skill called 'meditation' and it's actually not as boring as it sounds. You just breath in for four seconds, hold for one, breathe out for four, hold for one and repeat. It's hard to think about what an ungrateful stuck-up lazy ignorant slimy and genuinely shitty person you are when you're struggling to breathe perfectly. I'm also sorry to my dad who's been nothing but loving since he engaged my mom, even going as far as taking the blame for me sometimes. He is amazing and I would always refer to him as my stepdad to my friends even though he's around a lot more than my blood dad. I've fudged up. I just got the most trusting and loving people in my life to not trust me. I'm telling Wattpad this because I need someone to know. I need someone to see that everyone has flaws, especially me. No one can be a Mary Sue because those don't exist. If you're reading this, even though I don't know you, know that I love you. Know that you're perfect. And know that people care about you so much. I didn't realize how much my parents loved me until I lost it. I didn't realize how much my friends trusted me until I lied. I didn't know how much I hurt myself and everyone around me until it was too late. But it's not to late for you. Please don't make the same mistakes I did. Don't wait until it's too late. Love the good people in your life and don't be influenced by the bad. Just learn from everyone what to do or what not to do. I hope you know how much of a difference you make in someone else's life be that your best friend, your sibling, your romantic partner or even your enemies. Thanks for bearing with me.
~Stereokitten :3
