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Four

I just need to let go sometimes.
Just to feel who I really am.
I know who I am.
I guess.
Maybe?
¿
I don't even know anymore.

That's how messed up I am right now.

At least that's how messed up I feel anyways.

Sometimes I'm worried nobody cares about me.
I know that people do.
I guess I just push them out cause I don't want to get close and then.
Lose them...
Everyone leaves me.
I don't want to lose anyone else.

So I'm sorry to everyone I push away.
If you're reading this.
And I know at least one of you are.
And you probably know who you are.
I love you and...
I'm sorry.
And I know we said no more of these stupid sorry things.
But I have been pushing you away lately and I'm sorry I have.
I just don't want to...
Lose you.

Because I love you.
I really, really love you.