Save Yourself || Poems

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I like this person
Scratch that, i fell for him.

Yet he doesn't know.

Sometimes it feels good,
Sometimes it feels like a knife piercing through my heart.

I see him now, but he's with someone else.

He's holding her hand,
and i felt a cold blade run down my spine.

It hurts that he looks at her with such awe.

Shes better than me, I know that
And Im just a nothing to him.

What can i do?

Nothing.

Just accept the pain, the sting.

I like this person.

He makes me smile,
And my heart flutters inside.

But i can still feel the stinging pain somewhere there.

The next thing i knew,
It came back.

The sting.

He doesn't know
But I'm slowly dying inside.

Because of that kiss.

I felt a sting in my chest once more,
I held my chest, clutching to it for dear life, my knees were weak, and theres blood.

I can see him, am i hallucinating?

I saw him looking at me,
But it wasn't the way he looks at her, he looks at her with awe.

He looks at me with hooded and silver eyes
Blood gold and running cold.

Im back to reality.

And the pain doesn't go away,
Its permanent.

But I'm forgetting about those things

Those things that broke me,
That made me fall apart.

"How can you kill yourself?"
I heard someone ask.

"Falling for someone who doesn't love you the way you love them back" my voice was neutral, face was strain.

I fell for him, I'll admit.
And now, i see him falling.

But this time, I'm not.