The third sugg (fanfic)

Chapter 7

Jordan's POV
Today is the day that I am going to be filming my first scene for EastEnders and I am terrified. Although I have done some acting before this is really big way bigger than anything I've done before. Seen as its my first day Zoë  said she would drive me to the studio but every other day I will be getting the train. After waking up and going on social media for a while I finally got up and decided to get dressed. After looking in my wardrobe for a while I decided on some black skinny jeans, my white and black Victoria secret top and some converse.

Once I was dressed I put my hair into a messy bun I didn't bother with makeup as I will be getting my makeup done when I get to the studio anyway. Once I was ready I grabbed my backpack and phone and went downstairs to get some breakfast. After a quick breakfast we were on our way to the studio and to say I was nervous was an understatement. Not only am I nervous about filming today but I also forgot to take my tablets today for my anxiety which means I am more likely to have a panic attack which wont go down well on my first day. Immediately after arriving on set I was rushed to hair and makeup before I could even say goodbye to Zoë.
Hair and makeup was finally done and all I had to do was getting into my clothes for the scene and we were ready to film. Luckily today was a short day of filming we only have to film two scenes then we can go home so I am going to visit Joe before I get the train home.

*2 hours later*
We were finally finished filming and it actually wasn't as bad as I thought. We got through the scenes quite fast as everyone knew their lines. After changing back into my own clothes I went outside to wait for Joe to come pick me up. I managed to not have a panic attack while on set which I was happy about but I'm still feeling super anxious which really sucks. After waiting for about ten minutes Joe finally arrived. "Hey Jordan, how did it go?" Joe asked as I got in the car. "It went good" "you OK" one thing about my siblings is that they know everything about know when I'm not feeling ok and when I'm lying. "Yeah I'm fine" but they also know when I don't want to talk like right now. "Are you hungry we could go get something to eat" "sure". With that we drove to nandos. About an hour later we were leaving the restaurant we spent the whole time talking about normal things and for once we didn't get noticed by anyone. Although I love doing YouTube it can be hard sometimes especially when you have anxiety like I do. Anyway after leaving the restaurant we were approached my big group of screaming fans normally I feel fine being approached by fans and love to take time and take pictures with them all. After all they're the reason why my career is what it is. But this time it isn't like normal I feel completely trapped I'm surrounded and I cant find a way out although I don't want to be rude to them I have to get away. " I have to go" I said to Joe before making a run for it down the road. As I ran away I could hear Joe calling my name but I couldn't stop. I finally stopped running after my legs got tired. I sat down on the ground outside a shop with my head down waiting for Joe to catch up. "Jordan what happened back there? Are you ok? Why did you run?" "I just want to go home" "ok let's go" I slowly stood up and we walked back to the car. I didn't talk the whole way back to Zoë's house. Another thing about me is that I hate talking to people about my feelings I don't like to show people my weak side. We arrived back at the house and we had to knock on the door as I forgot my key. "Jordan what are you doing back so early" instead of answering I walked past her up to my room. I wasn't trying to be rude but I knew that if I told her what happened I would start crying which is something I also don't like doing in front of people even if they are my family.

Zoës  POV
I was sat in the living room with Alfie when I heard the doorbell ring. Who could it be, we're not expecting anyone. I opened the door to reveal Jordan and Joe stood on the doorstep. "Jordan what are you doing back so early" I asked Jordan as she went running past me up the stairs. "What happened" I asked joe and I moved out of the way so he could come in. "We were out for food and when we left we were approached by a group of fans and she ran off. When I eventually caught up with her she just said she wanted to go home". " I'll go talk to her. Alfie's in the living room if you want to go into him" I said to Joe as I left the kitchen to go up to check on Jordan. "Jordan can I come?" I said as I knocked on her door. There was no answer so I decided to go in. When I walked in I found her laying on her bed crying. "Oh Jordan what's happened?" "I messed up" she said as she sat up to look at me " what do you mean you messed up" "all they wanted to do was get a picture but I couldn't even do that. I just had to have a panic attack a ruin it for them. They're the reason that I am where I am and I couldnt even get a picture without panicking. I'm so stupid." "You're not stupid, you have anxiety there's nothing you can do about that. All of your fans know that. I guarantee none of them are annoyed at you they understand." "Thanks Zoë" "no problem what are sisters for, how about you get some PJs and I will run you a bath" "ok"