What went wrong

Lost without you

I still don't except the fact that he's gone. It's been four months, the longest four months in possible history.

6:00 A.M my clock reads. Why I get up this early,the world may never know.I've been trying hard to skip school but I decided to try to get through it. I got dress, ate some breakfast and checked my phone. I used to check my phone everyday till now it's been at least a week. I scroll through instagram and all I see are "sorrys" and "R.I.P Jacob" when I see his name I stop,I can't do this. I grab my stuff leave a note to my mom saying I'm leaving early to school and run out the door.

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When I get to school, which has been the same routine forever, I put up my books from my locker and go see my best friend Abby. She's the only real person that's been there for me forever. Abby has long dirty brown hair about the length of mine and is about as tall as me our personalities fit great together! We met in kindergarten and have been friends since high school.

"Hey Lily!" she says in her normal tone, she always is so happy. She cheers me up most of the time.

"Hi" I say with my eyes half way open.

"Still tired huh"

"Yeah"

I'm stumbling over my words as usual I over think everything, and everything I say or hear reminds me of Jacob.

"So I uh saw my Instagram..."

Abby looks up from her book, that's she always reads and looks at me.

"You did what?"

"I read mostly everything"

"I thought we agreed you would never read that stuff LILY!"

"I...I had to I'm just tired of everyone saying all these lies"

"That's bad for your Heath and you know that."

I guess so, so I just tell her all talk to her later and get to class before I'm late. I really don't want to talk about it anymore but I wish people would listen.

I never killed him.

I think.