My Online Love.

Chapter Seven.

I just had Sex with Duke. I walked into my bathroom and showered real quick. I wrapped up in a towel and walked out of the bathroom. He was sitting on the edge of my bed. Shirtless and in his boxers. I leaned against the door frame. I just needed a moment to admire the view. Because I sure as hell wasn't going to get this side of him again. 

"Spence.. I'm so sorry." He said running a hand through his hair. 

"I'm not." I told him in a bored voice. Why should I be sorry for living? I walked into my closet and dropped the towel. I put on some underwear and a tank top and some shorts. I brushed my hair and then walked into the kitchen. I grabbed another shot and downed it. 

"Spence we can't tell anyone what just happened. You have a boyfriend. You're my little sisters best friend. Christ you're practically my sister. This was insane. I can't believe we just did that. I can't believe I took your virginity! I am the worst person in the world." Duke kept rambling while I just started drinking from the bottle. 

"What!?" I heard someone yell and then Duke was on the floor. Gilligan was punching him. 

"Gilligan stop!" I yelled and poured some booze on him. He froze and looked up at me. 

"I can't look at you right now!" 

"Gill we were drunk. It shouldn't have happened. I regret every second of it. I love you Gill. I love you not Duke." I mumbled Gill stood up and pulled Duke up. 

"I'm sorry man. But you're such a fucking dick for sleeping with MY girlfriend!" 

"It was an accident. Seriously we were beyond drunk." Duke bit back and left. I handed Gilligan the bottle and he shook his head. 

"I'm beyond pissed off at you right now Spencer. How could you sleep with him!?" 

"I was drunk! Maybe if you were the one here comforting me after my father just died then I would have slept with you instead! I have no cares anymore. I don't fucking care about my consequences. I am no longer going to be the good girl. I am going to live for the day. I am going to live like there's no tomorrow." 

"I should have been here for you.." 

"I should be drunk again." I chugged the bottle and then walked over to the stereo. I turned it up. It was roughly 4 am. Screw it. 

Today is my fathers funeral. I danced to the music. Gilligan was in the kitchen cleaning. I rolled my eyes. What a kill joy. I dropped to the couch and fell asleep. 

When I woke up I was sitting on the floor of my shower and someone was pouring water on me. 

I screamed and looked up. It was Madds and Gill. 

"What the hell are you doing!?" 

"You have to be at your fathers funeral in two hours. You were lying on your bedroom floor with puke by your face. I got lover boy to set you in the shower so we didn't have to touch your puke hair. Get a grip Spence. What would your dad say if he saw you like this?!" 

"Who fucking cares. He's not here. I have no parents. I have no family. Fucking leave me alone right now!" 

I stood up and started stripping before they even left. I showered and then downed some aspirin and water. I got dressed in my black dress and put my heels on and I left my hair down and I fixed my makeup. I put on some smell good stuff and then got in Maddelines car. We all rode to the church in silence. The entire church was packed. Celebrities, elite people the rich and famous really. My dad was very influential he was very important. I sat down in my front row seat in between madds and Gill. Next to Madds family. 

The service seemed like it took forever. I went up at the end to say a few words about my dad. 

"As all of you know, my dad was very good at his job. So good that he was constantly being called out to do some surgery. He dedicated his life to saving others. My dad is the best role model that I could ever imagine. He was always putting others ahead of him. Some day I want to be just like him. I love my dad very much. I always called him Doctor Dad. He was the perfect father. He supported me with all that I wanted to do. I could never forget him. Nor will I ever. Thank you all for coming. I know he appreciates it as much as I do." I went back to my seat. Then we did the viewing and then we all road out to the graveyard. He was put right next to my mother. 

When the day was over we went back to our house and everyone came over with food. Food and flowers. There were kids and teachers from my school here too. 

When the day was finally over I was standing in the kitchen with Gilligan, Duke, Maddeline and Henry. I walked over to the liqour cabinet and grabbed a bottle of whiskey. It was my dads favorite. 

"My dad loved his whiskey." I said grabbing cups and pouring a shot into them. 

"To Doctor Dad." I said and we all clinked cups and downed it. 

I was on a downward spiril and I didn't care. I just didn't care. 

We all drank and danced and laughed and had fun. I actually laughed. We were all being goofy and ridiculous. We were outside in the backyard playing soccer. Well we were failing at it. 

"Lets play truth or dare!" I said as we all sat down on the ground in a circle. 

"Okay. I'll start. Duke truth or dare?" Gilligan said looking across at Duke. 

"Truth." 

"Is it true you've always been in love with my girlfriend?" We all looked at Duke and he blushed. 

"It's.." 

A/N! Sorry I haven't updated this in forever! These updates are probably going to be short. Unless I have big plans. These are really just fillers. I do apologize! How are you guys feeling about Spencer right now? What about Gilligan!? That poor guy! Until next update! :)