I've had it for a couple years, but something struck me quite recently. On all social media, it's good to see that you aren't alone, but the majority of social media subconsciously promotes the idea of not trying to get better. I get it- it's so fucking hard but you just sort of have to do it anyway. You don't wanna eat today, get up and grab a snack. If you don't wanna get up at all, just fucking force yourself to. I can just feel past me saying "that's not how it works, that's losing" but it's not a loss. I know that some days you just won't be able to, but the important thing is trying. Getting up and listening to happy music and taking a shower and brushing your hair and teeth and eating and going outside, even if you'll just go right back inside. Just try to. You don't have to do shit, but if you try to go against it, that's an automatic win. I can't see another kid with scars up their arms walk into a mental hospital after being in the ER from an attempt at suicide. I saw enough of those at the mental hospital for 20 lifetimes.
