possession: reason for my own damage.

why did that idiotic condom broke that night

Harsh yadav

I am tired of pretending as if I don't care .

I am tired of these fake smiles and stupid business. 

I am tired of making money and showing myself as a business tycoon.

I am just so tired. 

I want to go out and live my life as it was 4 years ago . But can I do it ? No , !!!

I was born a yadav . And I even have to die like one .

Crazy life .

When I was 25 , crazy life meant , flirting with any random girl , eating , drinking , sleeping and repeating . At that time crazy meant , going on long drives with friends, waking up all night to study and searching up whole market to get the perfect gift for my noor .

Noor . Why !!

When I knew it was all physical then why I fall for her .

Why the hell she had to get pregnant only on that day on which my father died .

Why do I have to be such and emotional asshole .

Why did that idiotic condom broke that night. 

Why couldn't I accept my love and her .

WHY !!!!

and this man , sitting in my office who doesn't even know a thing about life says me I handle relation nicely .

Idiot he is .

If I was that smart , I could have my love with me and maybe my child . Who knows.!!??

I went to meet Arjun again . This him his face was much more serious.  As soon as he saw me he stood up from his chair .

" mr. Yadav, "

I gestured him to sit down . And passed him a tight smile .

Their was an awkward silence that none of tried to break .

" uh , Arjun, would you like to go for lunch??"  I asked him in a completely professional tone. 

" mc donals ." He did not even waited for a second before replying. 

I couldn't help but smile at his answer .

What are we ? Few youngsters who bunked their college so that we can go to McDonald's. 

As soon as he said that , he blushed and " no , no sir , I mean we can really go to anywhere you like ."

He is stammering .

God knows what's their in mc donals.

" no problem Mr. Khanna , McDonald's would work . Let me get my laptop . " I said him while passing a asuring smile .

" no sir, really, I didn't mean that ." He was looking downwards .

Crazy he is .

I will enjoy working with him . I smiled at my own thought .

" what is your age Arjun?"

" huh ? Why ?"

" well , my age is 27 , what is yours ?"

" 26 why ?"

" since you are only a year small than me , you really don't need to say me sir . I mean harsh would work ." I have him a tight smile .

Why the hell am I smiling so much today . !!

" ohk , harsh , let's go to McDonald's." He said with a cheerful voice .

If he would have been a girl , I would have married him .

Wait , I did not said that . Just forget what I thought a  second before .

" harsh ?" He called for me .

" yaa !"

" let's go . "

I nodded and went out with him .

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" are you sure about it ?" I asked this question to Arjun for the 100th time. 

" sure harsh!" This time he was looking at me as if I asked him for his kidney .

" why can't we go in with our suits !!"

" harsh we are going in McDonald's, not in some posh restaurant that we have to wear these stupid suits !"

" but -"

" no buts , just leave them in your car and remove your tie and roll on your sleeves. " he said to me while he was doing all this to him self .

I copied him and to be very frank , I liked what I did .

Maybe, I can I have friend. 

Without thinking more , I entered McDonald's. 

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