Whispers Of Secrets || Nagisa X Kayano ||

Chapter 3~ Dear Dairy

Two weeks later.
I moved into the school dormitory with the excuse of 'the school is too far'

I couldn't stand the tension being in the Shiota's home. I visited the house occasionally, providing Hiromi reports of Nagisa. Hiromi was much more understanding towards my decisions.

I worry about her well being. I snuck into her apartment sometimes to watch her. Catching her sobbing while looking at Nagisa's picture making guilt arise in my chest.

Originally, Nagisa's father was going to remarry Hiromi. But, I guess Hiromi is too depressed for such a joy filled event.

So [insert father's name] moved in to help cope with her stress and pain.

Once, I decided to cook dinner for both of them. Hiromi ended up sobbing from the memory of Nagisa. Almost choking me with the force of her hug.

All evidence of the men that kidnapped Nagisa was gone. The only thing left behind by Nagisa was his cellphone.

___

6 months later.
I'd like to say I was fine and dandy despite Nagisa's disappearance. Because that would've been what he wanted.

Instead, I spent my time on the computer, watching korean dramas about tragic love.

Okay that was a joke. At least. The last part. I've been into hacking. I have to admit, I'm a pretty decent one. I could be at a professional level. Than again I don't really know how good I am among other hackers. Hackers are hard to find. My alias is Sky. I had approached Itona and Ritsu for advice about computers and hacking.

I used to cry and think about Nagisa all the time. Breaking down the moment I was alone.

I spend most of my free time reading the news articles. Invading my classmates privacy. Watching their every move. That sounded creepy, but I love observing people now.

That's how I created the personailty Sky. Humorous but realistic. Manipulative but kind.

I found it amusing how hypocritical humans can be.

For example, let's say a girl named Marina was a popular girl in school. Surrounded by friends. So pretty and kind that everyone wants to know her. But, unfortunately it was all a facade.

One day, her friends finds out about her being tired of acting. So they say, "Be who you are. We are your friends. We won't judge you for who you really are."

On the other hand, a huge weeb in class named Shanelle was contented with acting all otaku like. But was constantly bullied by people. Being called. Bitc*y. Whore. Fat. Ugly. Manlover.

Seeing this Marina was hesitant in being herself. Trusting her friends, she did as they told her to. But, they all left her. Saying, "You used to be so much nicer."

See how that works? Okay, enough of the dark talk.

I have been part of the underworld. Striking deals for information.

As huge as the government was, they couldn't find Nagisa. So I decided to do it myself. Erasing my existence when I was done.

Nothing huge so far. I've came to learn about the harsh reality many people don't know. But, some things are better kept a secret.

My name was not known across the underworld like how many action books would depict the protaganists.

I have gotten a small handful of connections. Once in a while, I would come across suspicious information. I once even got hold of something pretty funny like how Yanagisawa might be gay.

I was given Nagisa's phone. But, I couldn't quite bring myself to look through it. Maybe some day soon I can do it.

Nagisa, I miss you.
___

9 months have passed by.

I'm pretty proud of myself. School wasn't as harsh as how Kunigigaoka was like. I manage to score top ten every term. I can even keep up with Ritsu's hacking... barely. I'm still human.

After the incident about Nagisa, a few of our old classmates joined my school. Recently Karma transfered in. I feel bad for that guy. Because he was given love letters very often. Till he mashed wasabi up the school bullies nose. He was than quite feared, but nonetheless a cool guy.

I had finally opened Nagisa's phone. I wish I had done it earlier now. Because a message was left behind for me.

'Akari, how are you? I hope you're fine.

I've always anticipated that this day will come. When I leave you. I hope that you weren't kidnapped along with me. Because that would've been terrible.

As you're reading this. I wonder how you would feel. Anger? Hatred? Sadness? Or nothing at all.

Am I dead while you're are reading this. Or captured alive?

If I'm dead my answer to you would be, move on. [I didn't mention from what;)]

If I'm alive but evil which I sincerely think wouldn't happen. But maybe. Give me a big slap in the face for me will you?

If I'm captured. Than, I promise. I'll find you again. Afterall.

I'm Shiota Nagisa. '

I wish Nagisa had wrote more. But, I'm happy to have something to hold on to. It's almost like a lucky charm to me.
___

It has been one year, till that day occurred.

I've been doing fine. But, lately I've losing sleep [Get the reference?😏]. I couldn't help but wear a mask around others.

I had a dream.

It was blurry but I remembered. I saw a guy with a average height and lean built. He was wearing a dark blue hoodie. Covering his face.

I was buying flowers for Nagisa. I couldn't help but cry at the thought of him. I was gripping the flowers at my hands. My heart was in pain.

The guy turned to me and used his index finger and lightly placed it on my chest where my heart was located. And I let him. His gentle touch felt reassuring. His face was covered but I could see his faint smile when he retreated his hand.

Through my tears, I gave a geniune smile after so many months.

Than as if the scene was from a movie. A breeze blew and his hoodie fell from his head, revealing his soft eyes and blue messy hair.

'Yo. 'S been a long time. Akari.'

'Nagi-'

Than I woke up with tears stained my cheeks. I screamed softly into my pillow. The pillow muffling my cries of pain.

My phone buzzed when I calmed down.

I looked at the clock. It was 3 in the morning.

I checked my texts and saw an anonymous user.

It was pretty much what I didn't see was coming at all. Who sent this? Is this a joke? A threaten? Or is it Nagisa. I reread the message many times. What's going on?

The message said only two words

I'm coming

___
Here's the update I promised was coming soon.😆 The next chapter is probably where the romance will start soon. I'm going to start working on my other story so I probably won't be updating anytime soon after this.😅

Word count: 1350

~Emi