Stuck With The Alpha

Chapter 21

Pressure.
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Lincolns POV

It's been two weeks since the incident, since I took away her pup...

Shes finally opening up to me again, and I don't blame her after what I've done. Aina and Emeline are forbidden to see her or be in the same room as her, she hasn't forgiven them for knowing what I was going to do.

I understand, but again, it's my fault. As their alpha I forbade them to tell her, they had no choice.

I took away her parents, her pup, and her friends.

However, I feel terrible but relieved, does that make me selfish? Evil perhaps? I don't know anymore.

I just want the best for her.

Lilian continues to grieve over her lost pup, the one I had taken from her, and I continue to do what I can; provide comfort.

The child would've looked just like his father. He would be the constant reminder of what was taken from Lilian and I couldn't bring myself to allow it. I should've gotten rid of it the moment I got her back, she grew to attached to it.

I began to dress myself in black just as Lilian did, we were going to her pups grave today. I told her I found the perfect spot for him, and I did. Off my territory.

We made our way down the stairs and  out the front door. My driver already waited for us. I took Lilian's hand and opened the door for her letting her get in first, myself following after.

She cried silently be side me and I huddled her into my chest.

"It'll be ok Lily" I said soothingly as her tears soaked through my shirt, my heart ached for my poor mate.

Lily kept her head down as we drove to our destination. She sniffled and cuddled me, her beast seeking comfort from me, her mate.

The pup killer.

We arrived in the golden paw territory just and hour away from scarlet fang.
I had my driver take us to where the now vacant pack house was, repaired of course.

"we're here darling" I said softly. Lily looked out the window and gasped. She covered her mouth in awe and surprise as happy tears fell down her cheeks. She gazed up at the 10ft memorial before us built for the late alpha and Luna of golden paw, Leo and Victoria paw. Right in front we're three graves for her parents and her pup who had been buried already, she could stand to see her pup lowered into the ground.

First he parent, now her pup.

Who would be next, who else would I rip away from her life...

I felt Lily wipe away a stray tear from my eye, one that I hadn't realized I had shed on the first place.

"Thank you" she said looking up at the monument with pride, I had it made from a photo that had survived the destruction of the pack house.

"You must really hate me lily" I said lowly almost a whisper.
"Look at all that I've taken from you" I said not being able hide my tears, and pain from her.

My walls went down and my raw, undiluted emotion ripped through the bond wrapping its sticky tendrils around us.
Lily's eyes widened and she looked at me with sadness.

"I could never hate you Lincoln" she said softly cupping my unshaven face, forcing me to look into her sad eyes.
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Lily laid her flowers down at each grave, a single red rose. We left soon after that and on our way back to Scarlett fang.

Lily gave me a curious glance as we passed the pack house.

"I want to bring you somewhere" I said softly, she nodded and sat silently beside me just staring out of the window again lost in thoughts.

Not long after we arrived and me and lily made our way out of the car, this was pack burial grounds. Few tombstones stood, not many wolves wanted to be buried, it was more common o be cremated.

Inked her to where the high ranking wolves were buried, and we made our way over to somewhere I haven't been in ages.

Alecia Fang
Here lies our beloved
Luna, mother, sister, and friend.
May she find peace in the moon.

"This is where my mother is now" I said my mouth pressing into a thin line trying to hold back the pain I felt.

Liky held my hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze.

I looked down at her.

"I wasn't always the big bad scary alpha you know, I used to be so....kind, gentle even" I started to say, I led us past my mothers grave and went to one that I haven't been to since I became alpha at 16.

Cobi Fang

I made sure that nothing but his name was on his tombstone, no one needed to remember him.

"Your father" Lilian stated, she hid her expression but I could feel her disgust ripple through the mate bond.

"He was an evil wolf, loved chaos and war more than his own mate and son." I said just staring numbly at the gravestone. "He ruled this pack with an iron fist,he was cruel, and all he ever felt other than hatred and distaste from everyone was lust for my mother. He was to absorbed by his own power and ego to truly feel love for her or me." I finished, feeling like a wounded pup.

"He made me this way, I swore to my m there that I would never be like him but I lied! I'm just like him! The rumours you heard are true Lilian, I've done so many disposable and unholy things that I couldn't even bring to tell you of lily! I'm not a good man..." I concluded, the damage that I had done to my soul was irreversible.

"The fact that you are remorseful shows me you can still change Lincoln, that what I'm here for....to help you, to complete you."she said quietly, I kissed her lovingly man I was so lucky to have her.

" I love you lily" I whispered resting my forehead on hers.

"I love you too" she responded, "lets go home now" she said, and we walked to the car. By this time my whole expression and demeanour had changed to a hard and cold one, only Lily would ever see me like that.

We arrived back at the pack house in the early afternoon hours we made it just in time for dinner, when I opened the door the smell of blood was in the air instead of food, lily ca e up beside me in the doorway and went pale.

Right before us was my beta, my best friend, Alex.

Dead.

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