Bully (scomiche)

Want To Die

Scott's POV

I walked into school nervously, hoping Mitch was here. I looked around frantically as i realized he wasn't here. My eyes filled with tears as i thought about the bad things that could've happened to him,

"Hey Sc-" I interrupted Alex with a huge hug.

"um...are you okay?" he hugged me back awkwardly.

I started sobbing on his shoulder.

"Scott, oh my god what's wrong?" he hugged me tighter as his voice showed concern.

"Scott, talk to me?" He pulled away in the hug.

"Come on." he grabbed my wrist and took me to the bathroom. The bell rang but he didn't care.

"Scott, calm down, shhh." He rubbed my back trying to calm me down.

My sobs calmed down a little after 5 minutes.

"Tell me what's wrong, i haven't seen you this upset in awhile."

I wiped away my tears. "I-i'm scared.."

"Scared of what?"

i looked down.

"That-that i've lost mitch....more than just loosing him as a boyfriend, losing him as a whole.."

"You think he's dead?"

"I didn't say that!" i broke down to the floor realizing it's possible he could be. "i meant it i-i just can't imagine a world without him. Even if he was my bully." i sobbed. Alex sat next to me.

"I'm sorry Scott. I didn't think it would affect you like that." He rubbed my back.

"This is all my fault. I shouldn't have kissed him in the movie theatre. I ruined everything." I cried in my knees.

"It's not your fau-"

"Yes it is! I am the one that leaned in to kiss him! I let it happen...That dumb a**  had to talk sh*t." 

"It's okay Scott." I shook my head knowing it's not.

"No it's not Alex. I could've ruined everything. Our relationship, his life-"

"How could you have ruined his life?'

"Ugh, you don't get it! His parents are drug addicts that could care less about him and his 4 year old sister! They rarely buy them food, all they do is clean, get abused, and their father sits around drinking beer! His mother has broken his wrist before! She hits them with belts and throws moldy food at them if they're hungry. She spends all the grocery money on drugs and beer. Anything could've happened to him and Bella..." Alex looked down.

"Sorry, I never realized how-how horrible his life is...im so sorry Scott."

I looked away thinking all the things that could happen to him or Bella.

I broke down again.

"Want me to take you home? You can't be here like this." I nodded lightly.

"Okay, lets go." 

Mitch's POV

I sobbed in the bathroom as the blood spilled from my arms. 

"You deserve this." I sliced my arm again, and again, and again. My arms stung from my almost completely cut up arm. I stared at it. What if I die? Things will be better, i'd rather be dead than suffer. 

*knock knock*

"Mitchy! I gotta go potty!" I quieted my sobs. She doesn't need to know im like this.

"Mitch?" She opened the door. Sh*t I forgot to lock it. tf was I thinking. 

"Get out Bella!" I reach to close the door, but I got dizzy.

"Mitchy!! Nooooo whats happening!" She broke down. She started screaming so loud that my ears rang each time. 

"I'm fine Bella." I said sternly.

"No youre not! You're bleeding everywhere! Look at te fluor!" She pointed at the floor. I didn't notice the pool of blood...

I gave up and started crying. Seeing her cry because of me. I'm so stupid! I'm the only thing she has. But I don't deserve to live. I deserve to die. She hugged me tightly as I grabbed pills.

"Are those to make you feel better?" I looked at the label, they're anti-depressants. 

"Y-yes..." She stopped hugging me. I grabbed a glass of water and took one, then another, then another. 

"Thats a lot." I put every single pill in my mouth and swallowed them. I tried not to gag. I was a mess. I sat on the tub. I got dizzy again before falling into the tub.

"Mitch!" My stomach began to heart. I grabbed the razor and started cutting my other arm. I just want to be gone.

"Mitch stop!" She scream again trying to stop me.

*knock knock* 

Bella ran to the door hoping it someone that could help. 

"Scott!"