I Believe In You

School Tour

Hope you guys enjoy. This chapter might be a little weird because it is night and I'm a little tired so please don't expect much. Thanks!
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I wake up in my new bed but I don't feel great about it for some strange reason. I get up slowly and head towards my dresser to get an outfit for today and walk over to my bathroom. I put all my stuff on the sink counter and when I am fully undressed I walk over to my human sized mirror.

"Ugh I look disgusting I'm so fat." I whisper to myself. Why do I have to be fat it disgusts me so much. I turn on the shower and get in but I feel like something is missing. I look around for what I am missing and when my eyes land on a razor I feel like I need it. I pick the razor up and take out one of the blades. I don't know who's razor this is but I don't really care right now. I hold the blade to my wrist and slice remembering insults from school and my life before I came here.

Waste of space
Dirty bitch
Whore
Slut
The beatings
Bullying
Hate
Despised
Life
Different
Cunt
And worst of all~a nobody who is alone with her useless life.

Wow that's more cuts then I usually put on myself. Altogether there are 27 cuts. I usually put up to like 15 cuts at the least. I put the razor down and let the water run over my freshly stinging cuts. I look down and see blood covering my feet. I may seem like I am getting my life back together but there is still a big empty dark hole in the middle of my heart that I just don't know how to fill it. I have this urge to remember all the hate that I got in my life and I have these flashbacks of my childhood and when they finish I end up puking because it makes me to dizzy. I also have the urge to cut because of my depression that nobody knows about because it's not like they care.

I stay in the bath for about five minutes more before throwing on a long sleeve shirt and a pair of tights. I make my way down stairs and everyone is eating already so I go into the living room and lay down on the couch. I here someone approach me and I look up to see Tracy and I give her a small fake smile. She smiles back and sits next to me.

"Want some breakfast? We have bacon." I shake my head and smile to make sure she doesn't get suspicious. "I'm not really that hungry but thank you anyways." She gave me a small smile in return and headed back to the kitchen. Hopefully she doesn't find out the truth of why I don't want to eat. I turn on the tv and watch a couple episodes of orange is the new black.
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I skipped lunch today and went for a jog around my new neighborhood and my arms are yearning for the slice of a blade but I have been trying to hold back as best as I can. When I get home Tracy is going to take me to the school so I could have a tour around the campus and then get my schedule early. I guess Jamie and Elly are coming with me. Jamie is coming to show me where I'm suppose to go and where the classes are so that way I don't get lost. Elly's coming because she doesn't trust the twins and Robby is at work. I get back from my jog and get changed so I look decent and head downstairs. I am suppose to start school tomorrow and I am nervous.

"Come on Dakota! We have to go!"

"Be down in a second Tracy I just need to make sure I am not missing anything"

"Ok sweety just hurry up"

I run downstairs and climb to the back seat of the car with Elly and Jamie is in the front. The ride to the school was like five minutes away literally. We get out of the car and walk towards the entrance and then I feel mosquitoes in my stomach and that means I am very nervous. We go in and the lady at the front desk tells us to go to the main office so Jamie leads the way to the office. We enter the office and there is a man around the age of 50-60 I'm guessing that's the principal. He shoots his head up and when he sees me he smiles, like not even a good smile like a I'm gonna have you one day kinda of smile. Yup he's a creep now back away slowly before he rapes you. Im kidding but he is kinda creepy.

"Ahh you must be Dakota."

"Yes sir that's me.

"Well welcome my name is principal Jangley."

"Nice to meet you Principal Jangley."

"Here is your schedule and here is your locker number. Jamie will show you around ok. Have fun."

"Thank you." He nods and Jamie pulls me with him down the hallway. "God he is such a perve. I can't stand teachers like that." Jamie snarls a little. "Yeah I know he fucked my ex and she told me she wanted it and she didn't get that from me so I dumped her because she knew I wasn't ready." My mouth was probably an o by now. I can't believe that happened to him. "Wow that is such a bitch move. I would never fuck a pervert principal or any principal and teacher EVER. That is so gross to thank about." He chuckles a little at my response. "Yeah well your not a bitchy, slut so we won't have to worry about that." "That's what people used to call me. A bitchy, slut because apparently I slept with every boy in my old school. Little do they know I'm still a virgin." I looked at him wide eyed that I just shared that with him. He looked at me like I had two heads.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to share that." I said as almost a whisper but loud enough for him to here. "Is that true? Don't lie." I looked down, sighed, and nodded. "Why didn't you tell anyone?" I looked at him with sad eyes. "I.....had no one. Everyone hated me." Tears started to form in my eyes, but before they came out, I wiped them away. "We should finish the tour of the school." He noticed I was uncomfortable so he nodded and showed me around the rest of the school before we headed home. When we got home I skipped dinner and went to my room and cried myself to sleep like usual. I haven't cried in front of people for 7 years. But I do cry myself to sleep. It helps me sleep because the last time I had sleeping pills I tried killing myself so I can't use those. This was the only option I had left. Today seemed interesting didn't it?
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Hoped you enjoyed! Next chapter is going to be Jamie's POV. I can't wait 😊. Bye.