Tender (Damon Albarn)

I'm Sorry

A few days later

James is stood in front of me with his arms crossed over his chest as I sit in his white couch in his huge home. He looks at me and his eyes are full of sadness and confusion. I can't help but to give him s look of pity.

"Why won't you move in with me?" He asks, his voice soft and calm.

"I can't, it's not fair..." I say.

"How is it not fair? Am I not being fair?"

"You are...it's me that's not..."

I couldn't do this anymore. This fake relationship was wrong. It was bad on my part and even worse for James. He thought someone loved him when they didn't. I had to end it, right now.

"How are you not being fair?" James asks, almost pleading.

"James, I-"

"Please, Jessica, it's been over two years, I want to have some sort of step further in our relationship," James pleads.

"No," is all I can say, "I'm sorry, I can't."

"Why not?" James says, his voice cracking, "is there someone else?"

My eyes brim with tears as I look into his, they're full of hurt and confusion. All I'm doing is hurting people, I think to myself.

"You're not someone I want to be with," I finally say, looking away from him, "I've been meaning to say this for quite some time."

James sighs and runs a hand through his hair, "why didn't you say is sooner? Do you not want to move in with me after what happened with your last boyfriend?"

"I didn't say it sooner because I was just learning new things about you. And no, that's not the case. You're not my ex," I say.

"Jessica...I'm not stupid," he sighs.

"I never said you where-"

"I know you love Damon," he says, looking down at me sadly.

"Don't bring anyone else into this," I try says as calmly as possible. He can't know that he's right, it'll break his heart.

"Just admit that it's true!" He says, raising his voice.

"James you're not making this any easier for me!" I yell in frustration.

"What are you trying to do?"

"I'm trying to end this tiresome relationship because I'm not happy in it!" I yell, tears dripping down my cheeks.

"What can I do, Jessica? Start a band? Release and album nearly every year? Get rid of my house and live in a flat? Change my clothes, my hair, my backstory?" He says, hurt in his voice.

"Stop trying to be him!" I yell.

"Well I will of that's what it takes for you to love me!"

"James! Stop being pathetic! Yes, it'll hurt for a while but am I really worth it? Find someone who will love you for you," I say, rising from the couch.

James looks at me, there are tears in his eyes and down his face, I feel a pang of guilt as I look back at him, my face falling into a look of sympathy. We just stand, looking at each other for a while.

"I hope...I hope you find someone who'll make you happy," James says, his voice croaky.

"Same to you, James," I reply.

He holds his arms out and I go into them. We hug for a while, I cry into his shirt and repeatedly apologise to him. He just tells me it's okay and strokes my hair and we promise to remain friends. We break the hug and I wipe my eyes, he smiles at me.