Hollow Pride

You weren't there

I woke up in the middle of the night and you weren't there.
Next day I went searching for you everywhere.
Praying in my head that this was just a dream.
Kept telling myself you would never leave me.
But I couldn't stop thinking that you were gone.
That you abandoned me.
I couldn't comprehend, I couldn't understand, what led you to hurt me like that.
I wasn't mad.
I wasn't sad.
I just couldn't understand why you had done this to me.
Was I not good enough?
Was I not lovable?
Was I so disappointing that you left me in a cloud of dust?
My worst dream became my living nightmare.
I woke up in the middle of the night and you weren't there.

~(BZ)