Hollow Pride

You part 2

The words won't come out.
The pain won't go away.
Can't you see, every time you do these things, it kills me.
You expect me not to worry.
You expect me not to cry.
I know I'm strong.
But every time this happens, it weakens me.
I don't know where you got it from.
I don't know where it started.
All I know is I can't keep taking this.
You don't want me to worry?
Then stop telling me your stories.
Cause I can't take anymore of this heartache.
I can't take anymore of this.
I'm sick and tired of you coming home with this on your mind.
I'm so tired of going to bed crying.
I'm sick and tired of hearing you've been drinking and smoking out with the crew.
They're suppose to stop you from doing this stuff.
If they were real friends, they'd know it's not right.
You're to young a child.
I just want to stop crying.
Make me stop crying for you.
I've had to many encounters with a person who's had to much to drink.
He just had to barge into my life.
He took everything.
When he finally left, I was still empty handed.
He took it and I can never get it back.
Dignity is the key to life.
He just had to take that.
Out of everything I had.
To much alcohol.
To much smoke.
To much pain.
I can't take it anymore.
I just want it to end.
I want it all to go away.
I'm so tired of the pain.
I've dealt with a drunk man one to many times.
I asked him to stop.
He didn't stop.
He never stopped.
He couldn't stop.
He tried to stop.
He promised to stop.
He lied.
I met another man who said alcohol made him unable to stop.
Now he has to go through this alone.
You don't have to go through this alone.
I'm right here from the beginning till the end.
I wish you could see all you are to me.
You've grown to much.
You went years ahead of yourself.
You left me behind in the process.
Your so far away, you're out of touch.
It's dark and scary all alone.
It's lonely and cold on this road.
I don't want to go through this alone.
You can say I'm wrong.
That you're still here.
But if that is true, why can't I see you?

~(BZ)