4:10 ; joshler [✔️]

3:30

remember when we used to stay up this late? on the phone? and you would tell me "hey, you should really be going to bed. you need the sleep." and i would never listen to you, but always fell asleep right before you.

now i can barely sleep as it is.

always woken up by nightmares.

i never meant to hurt you josh. never meant to make you feel like no one cared. i hate myself so much. maybe you wouldn't have swallowed all of those fucking pills if i had just said something. asked you if you were okay like you did to me everyday.

i won't forgive myself for what i have done josh.

not even if you were to rise from the fucking grave.

wouldn't that be a crazy thought though? 'josh the zombie, back to eat tyler for being a dickhead'

understandable.

i love -

loved you, josh

no. i still do.

i'm sorry