For Her: Freshman Year - A Zane~Chan fan fiction (On Hold)

For Her: Chapter 9

For Her: Chapter 9
A Zane~Chan Fanfiction
Ok so as some of you may know I am going to update this off the schedule I made if I can and if I get extra time. I have been having lots of bursts of ideas so I thought I might as well update. Also, I have given up on switching back and fourth in POV's. So ya. I'm just going to switch whenever I think it will sound the best. Also, play the song whenever you would like. I just thought it would fit with the story. Anyway, on with the story.

Kawaii~Chan's POV
It's been two days since Zane got hurt. I was so scared... I still am. But he is doing a lot better. I still don't know why he was bleeding but he doesn't seem like he wants to talk about it. So I will respect his wishes and not bring it up. But still, I guess it kinda bothers me. I should go check on him.

Zane's POV
*sitting on the floor holding his knees*
I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't
Of course you can't. Your useless.
Stop. Stop please...
Meaningless, unneeded, worthless...
No. I can't listen to you. Somebody...
*sarcastically* Ahh save me save me
Why won't you just leave me alone
I can't leave you alone. I am you Zane.
Get out get out get out GET OUT OF MY HEAD!
Oh Zane. When will you realize your only escape-
Shut up shut up shut up! I DONT NEED YOU!
You can't run away forever. Just do it.
(Don't any of you dare bring up that meme!)
That's when I knew what came next...
I dragged myself to the bathroom, unraveled the bandages, and grabbed the razor.
Useless...
*cut*
Helpless...
*cut*
Worthless...
*cut*
Unneeded...
*cut*
Done...
I dropped the razor and hugged my knees into my chest as my wrists bled. Why... why me? Why am I still here?

*Knock knock*

Crap. No one can see me like this. That's when I ran for the bandages, wrapped my arms up, pulled on a sweatshirt, and hobbled over to the door.

Zane: Oh, hey Kawaii~Chan. I wasn't expecting you...

Kawaii~Chan's POV
Did Zane just call me Kawaii~Chan? He usually calls me K.C. And are those tears on his face?

K.C: Z-zane~Kun? Are you crying? Is everything ok? Cause if theirs something wrong Kawaii~Chan is there for you. Kawaii~Chan wants to help Zane~Kun and she wants him to be happy.

He just looked at me with these eyes. Eyes that were dull but full of pure sadness and pain. I couldn't help but look at him with a sympathetic look. It hurts to even think of him sad. That's when I figured it out. Then, he slammed the door. Zane slammed the door. In my face. Then I started to hit the door.
ZANE ZANE LET ME IN! SOMETHING IS WRONG! PLEASE! PLEASE DON'T HURT YOURSELF! ZANE! YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT KAWAII~CHAN WOULD DO TO HERSELF IF ANYTHING HAPPENED TO YOU! SO PLEASE! THINK!

Zane's POV
I could hear Kawaii~Chan screaming outside. But it hurt to much. I can't do it anymore. I walked over to the balcony on the third story of my rich family's house and opened the door. The wind blew my hair around and I saw Kawaii~Chan down below as she noticed me.

ZANE! PLEASE DONT!

Tears were streaming down her face.

ZANE!!!! PLEASE! DONT LEAVE KAWAII~CHAN! I CANT LOSE ANOTHER PERSON I CARE ABOUT!

Then I took a step up onto the railing.
So your really going to do it? Is this it?
Then, I stopped. Something stopped me. Then I walked down and opened the door. Kawaii~Chan was sobbing. She ran and jumped on me wrapping her arms around my neck and legs around my torso and as she buried her head into my neck. How could someone get so worked up over someone like me?

Kawaii~Chan's POV
I was shaking as Zane wrapped his arms around me. I couldn't stop sobbing. He was almost gone. He almost just slipped right out of my grasp. He almost just took his life. I wouldn't be able to live with myself.
K.C: Zane...
Zane: Shhhhhh I'm okay your okay everything is going to be fine.
K.C: Zane I was so scared...
Zane: I know I'm sorry. It's okay now don't worry your safe it's all going to be okay.
K.C: Thank you for being my best friend
Zane: I wouldn't have it any other way.

Then he carried me to the couch and set me down.

Zane: you should rest here. Your in no state to go home. And I promise I'll be okay.
Kawaii~Chan: Okay. I trust you Zane.

And just like that, I curled up and drifted off to sleep.

Zane's POV
How could I scare her like that. That was so cruel and selfish of me. I can go on. Just a little longer. Just a little longer...
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Oh man guys. That was a hard chapter to write as all of that came straight from my heart. I almost cried writing it. It's just, hard. I hoped you liked this chapter regardless of the feels. Thanks for reading! I love you all!
-Author~Chan❤️
Word Count: 893