MARCH 31st 2014
(NOTE. THIS MAY GET CONFUSING. This is coming straight out of my mind, no editing no filter, just random thoughts)
I don't know how many of you actually reads this, or if any of my real life friends actually reads any of this. But I don't care. This isn't for them; this is for me. So feel free to skip right over this, you won't hurt my feelings any.
It's hard, ya know? Pretending everyday. Day by day, that smile on my face, laughter in my voice. Putting on a wonderful show for the public. Watching them be so naïve as to believe that I am actualy FINE.
Sometimes, I just break. And I need someone to be there for me. Sometimes I revert back to my old self. The depressed, suicidal, confused, terrible young girl. A lot of the time I ask myself... Did she really ever leave? Or is she still hiding under the surface of my being? Threatening to break through? Maybe I'm a lie, maybe I'm not the happy, bubbly, exuberant girl that everyone thinks I am.
When people ask me if I'm fine, I say yeah. And they believe me. I could be smiling and crying at the same time, but they would STILL believe me. Not even question the tears. Because they don't REALLY care, do they? .... No, I didn't think so.
If you think about it, they are really only asking for their own benefit, to make them SEEM like a better person.
Is this making ANY sense to ANYONE??
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Thoughts of a Teenage Girl
HumorThis is basically a public journal... Including the random thoughts that go through my mind, my rants, favorite songs and their lyrics and other nonsense babble. VERY CONFUSING AT TIMES. PLEASE, no judging me. There also may be a little about some...
