He did this

Chapter 4

The memories.

Asking me out
"Hey?"
"Um hi?"
"So I wanted to know if you might want to go the party that is going to be in town on Friday?"
"Ha yeah that sounds great!"
"Sweet here's my number."

First date
"Ready?" He said as he hooked his arm around mine.
"Hell yeah!"
We went in and danced. A slow song came on. He grabbed my waist and I wrapped my hands around his neck. I looked into his eyes. I found my self leaning in. Our lips collided. It was magical. The fireworks were real.
As we pulled away he put his forehead on mine.
"Be mine?"
"Always will be" I said.

First fight.
"YOUR NEVER HOME PATRICK!"
"WHY DOES EVERYTHING I DO HAVE TO PLEASE YOU!?!"
"IT DOSENT I JUST...I just want to know where you are. I'm scared your hurt or something." I said as I began to cry.
"Oh baby don't cry. I...I will tell you from know on." He said as he held me close.

Now everything was gone. I was going to miss him. I was going to miss his kisses. Him holding me when I was sad. The sound of his heart beat lulling me to sleep. Now he was gone. I couldn't take it anymore. I ran to the bathroom and popped a blade out of my razor. I cleaned it off and cut. 7 cuts
P-A-T-R-I-C-K. I was getting light headed. They were deep. I needed this. I fell to the ground. I crawled to the living room were I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen. I wrote a note for if I die.

Dear Patrick,
I know you hurt me. But I love you. I love you so much. I'm sorry for what I did. If your reading this  most likely already gone. I love you and always will.

Dear Rozlyn,
I'm sorry sis. I couldn't take the pain. I lost my battle of life. It's okay. I'm weak and I'm proud of that. Heaven or hell know I'm watching over you. I love you
                                          -Amanda

I set the note down and stare at the ceiling. My eyes lids got heavy. I closed them and everything went black.