Impossible

Cheshire and Anne

No, my life hasn’t really changed. I just get up every day like normal. I try not to watch too much TV, try to avoid magazine stands. I try to visit Anne as much as possible; she’s been feeling weird lately with her empty nest. But, no, other than that, my life hasn’t really changed. I’m just Harry Styles’ girlfriend, and nobody else knows but me.

 Well, by that I mean, no one else knows, other than the people who matter. Harry knows, thank goodness, because that would be frightful. But to the outside world, Harry is just a playboy womanizer that bounces from lady to lady. I know this is not true, I know this because when you think he is alone, or with another celebrity, he is with me. Just me, his Lexi.

 “Where is Harry right now?” Anne asked me over tea. I was visiting after class and she had been alone all day.

 “Well, if you check tumblr, he is in Jamaica, and London and Cheshire today.” I grinned.

 Anne almost spit out her tea. “That’s my busy boy. Well, where is he really?”

 “London. He is meeting up with Louis to go check on Niall. He’s still on the crutches and they haven’t seen him since the surgery.” I mentioned, picking up a jammy dodger and dipping it into my mug.

 “And, how are you feeling about Harry not being home for Valentine’s Day?” Anne prodded.

 I paused, putting down my mug. “I’m used to it.” I forced a smile. This is how things were, and I was okay with that.

x.x.x.x.x

 Later that night, after I had eaten and fed the cats (He had named them Bob and Kyle even though they were females) I was snuggled up in bed, scrolling through my facebook absentmindedly, getting ready to fall asleep when my phone woke up from its daylong silence. It buzzes gently, letting me know I had a text.

 Hello my darlin Lex! –Harry

Where have you been all day? L -Lexi

Sorry love been so busy! Niall says hi though and he is doing well!-Harry

I’m glad! What can I do for you this evening Mr Styles?” –Lexi

You can tell me that you love me so very much and that you miss me!-Harry

Can’t do that! Not polite to lie! :P- Lexi

Ouch that hurts! I know it’s late bby, but was just thinking of you xox-Harry

I’m going to crash now, but, I do love you! –Lexi

I know you do! ^.^ Talk to you tomorrow Lex! –Harry

I placed my phone on the bedside table and plugged it into its charger. I rolled over and pulled Harry’s pillow close to me. Even though he hadn’t slept on it in a while, it still had a faint scent of his shampoo on it.

x.x.x.x.x

 Classes were unbearable on Valentine’s Day. I went to Uni full time, trying to get a degree in English lit.

 Even though I was used to being the odd duck that kept to herself, the couples on campus today were just unabashedly unbearable. People looked on at me like I was pathetic, but they didn’t know. Somedays it was just harder than others to keep my mouth shut.

 My friend Angela came home with me after classes and we ranted on about how busy Harry was and if it really would be better or not If everyone just KNEW. But no, it couldn’t. Harry had a persona to maintain.

 Angie was a hard-core Directioner and nothing made her happier than when I told her about the boys. Tonight was no exception as I updated her on Niall’s knee situation and that Harry never did actually go to Jamaica.