~Immortal Love~ Ciel x Vampire reader

~You said you'd grow old with me~ Chapter 14

It's been at least a week until Alicia passed.

I've locked myself in my room.

I haven't talked to Ciel so I bet he's worried sick right now. I laugh a bit thinking of his face and how relieved he will be to see me.

(Play song!)

I'd like to say I'm okay, but I'm not. I try but I fall

My smile soon fades when My mind goes to more memories of Alicia..

Close my mind..turn it off.

I let a tear slip out of my eye.

But I can't be sober, I cannot sleep.

I've been awake for at least 10 hours. Every time I close my eyes I see Alicia.

I was such a jerk to her and now I miss her so much..But I bet she's happy now.

You've got you peace now..

I'm still trying to be happy but I can't. It's hard knowing she's not here with me anymore.

But what about me?

My mind goes to the time when I first turned into a vampire

'Alicia...can I really live forever?' I say in excitement. She laughs.

Thought we had our lives, had the time..

'Yes and! We can't get old so no ugly wrinkles!' She laughs and I laugh with her.

Now you'll never get older..older

Another tear falls as I think of her smile when she was 1 second away from death and I did nothing..

Didn't say goodbye, now I'm frozen in time getting colder colder.

I didn't even tell her how much she means to me. Another tear.

Just one last word, one last moment.

The way she pleaded for death makes my heart sink into my stomach. I hold my chest and place my hand over my heart. Come back..

To ask you why..you left me here behind.

Alicia and I were like sisters.. a bond that couldn't be broken and it never will be.

I should visit her grave..

"So we will be immortals??' I ask Alicia 'yep! We will live forever and grow old! Haha not literally..' she laughs 'you'll be here with me right?' I ask her 'yep! Until the very end' she smiles.

You said you'd grow old with me...

As I exit my room out my balcony window I start walking to where I buried Alicia..well her ashes.

We had plans..we had visions.

'Hey Alicia?' She hums in response 'wanna rule the world? We will be the oldest vampires ever! We will be so strong!!' I shout. She nods 'you said it..'