Silence is a girls loudest cry

Chapter 1: Where it all begun.

Here we go..writing my book of memories. There's been nothing new going on in my life.

New friends, old friends.

Love, hate.

Care, torture.

If you asked me if those things were all the same when i was younger I would have said no but going through what I have been through I know that they are exactly the same.

Some might think I'm delusional but it you think about it outside the box you were brought up in... oh well trust me darling you would agree with me.

I can tell yoi quite a bit about myself apart from the obvious features: dark hair, hazel brown eyes, 15 years etc. etc. Shall I not bore you with the not so simple facts.

I'm not much of a simple girl that walks around looking for simple clothes or simple boys. I have a few things hidden up my sleeve that people don't know of and no I won't tell you ...just yet. But I will tell you a few things many might not expect... I'm insecure and very shy on the inside even though I put a party girl hard core look on.

Anyway back to the storie I'm sure you're getting bored of me ranting.

Iy was a normal day for me. The sun was shining bright amd clouds filled the sky as soft winds blew across my face as I got back from school. I cooked dinner for my family and as soon as everyone was done eating I got my bag and was ready to head out the door...
"Jenna!!"
I heard my dad shout from the kitchen
"Yes Danny? What can I do for you?"

(I don't call him dad since he left us back when I was young WITHOUT A SINGLE GOODBYE) I'm actually quite uncertain to why he came back.
"Where do you think you are going?" He asked in an amussed voice. A grin sneeking it's way into his face. I couldn't help but look at him with disgust.

"I'm going out. Okay bye!"
I opened the door and slammed it shut and as soon as I was out it felt like the burden had been lifted off from my shoulders..but i knew it wouldn't last long so I hurried up and began running towards the hills not so far from my house.

I made my way through the Forrest over the hill and through some thorney trees. It was a long journey but it was worth it. I looked a head getting tired and finally seeing a clearing.
Here the grass was a lush green colour and the flowers that grew there were beutifull and looked like they don't have a care in the world.I took in the scenery infront of me. Taking a deep breath I  took my bag of my back and sighed.

"So peaceful" I mummble to myself.

Suddenly I hear somthing behind me and I swung myself around as fast as I could and came face to face with  Danny

"What are you doing here?!" I say pissed at the fact that he had the guts followe me. I looked at him with hatred.

"I was looking for you." He said simply.

I was about to speak before he continues.

"I wanted to say that I'm sorry for what's happend in the past and i want you to know that I'm not proud of itat all." he says almost crying.

"it's okay Danny go back home" I mutter looking down holding back my years.

He had begun to laugh aloud and move closer towards me slowly. Confusion covered my face as I took a step back slowly but there was nowhere to go anymore and out of nowhere I was on the ground and in pain.

"What are you doing?!" I gulped in deeply scared for my life but he holds my mouth shut keeping me from saying another word.

"If u say another word I'll kill you!" he says still holding my mouth closed. He had a sick smile I'm his face.

I'm trying to control my sobs as he pushing his hand in between my legs. I try to squeeze my legs tight but it's absolutely no use. He was too strong. He looked at me and tilted his head.

"I know you want your daddy. You need to learn to follow the rules young lady. Time to show you how its done." He whispered in my ear.

Tears streamed down my face as i shut my eyes shut trying to get out of his grip.
His hand easily unbuttons my pants and takes them off. As he does this my sobs get harder to control. He unbuttons his pants and pulls them down I immediately look away fear on my face. I shook trying harder to escape.

And thats when it all fell apart. He drove himself into me and I let out screams of pain. I tried screaming for help but no one would hear me. I was too far from people. He looked at me with anger as he sped up giving me a sly grin. My cries got louder. I laid there lifeless when he stop to put his pants back on.

"PUT YOUR CLOTHES ON YOU STUPID GIRL!!!" He screamed down at me.

I listened too scared that he would hurt me more.

"We're going home and if you say a word about this to your mom you'll regret it."
I simply kept quiet and  nodded my head.
He grabbed my neck and pulled me towards his car and pushed me in. Tears kept running down my face all the way home. Before we reached fhe house he looked at me with anger.

"Hide your tears. I know you liked it." He said with another grin.

What the hell just happened ?!
I think to myself .

I prayed it was all just a dream. I was devastated and scared.I couldn't believe what my own father just did to me.
As soon as we get home I went to my room, shut the door and force my eyes closed..and as I'm lying there it replays in my head over and over again.I had been laying there for hours. Everyone in the house was asleep by now and that's when my life takes a turn for the worst...I decided to run away.

I packed the things. I needed to pull myself together.
I was almost done packin when i realized
"where the fuck I'm I going to go??!!!"

Brand new book!!! So excited.