Jane's POV
i cant keep calm! No! I cant just wait here doing nothing. She might hurt herself?! She's unstable! And what's the difference with him?! He's also might hurt himself. And i might too! Damn! I ran up the stairs and down again, hoping ill trip though i ran on it hundreds time already. I run into my bedroom slamming the door shut. I threw myself on the bed covering my face with a pillow trying to hold it as long as before. My heart is thumping so hard i stopped the thought. I got a son. I should live no matter what.
I got up and pretend that everything is allright so i got into my office and start to cut some black fabric not knowing what it'll become. I forgot. So i just cut through it as what the pattern form to be. I cant think so i just keep cutting through it. Now its done I don't know what i should do so i just walk to my room again trying to find my phone and earphones. I search my nightstand but find something else.
"Wear this tonight for me" written on the letter. A tight blood red dress. I'm unconsciously grinning. I feel excited almost. Then I realized, I don't know whose this from. So i put it back in and closed it. I walked into my office as i hold my phone and earphones dear to me turning on thr song and plug in the earphones, humming as i begin to sew the fabric after some time figuring what it was as i searched throough my sketchbooks and found a black assymetrical bustier. So beautiful. Hands slipped through my waist and down to my hips. I turn around to see Dean smiled.
"Beautiful." He pointed at my drawing. He reached it, slipping his hands behind me took the paoer and look at it closely.
"How did you get in?" So fast he laughed almost to loud.
"You didn't lock the door." I'm shocked and got onto the front door almost too quickly to check on it. it's locked. "I've locked it for you." He laughed again and put me on the couch. But how do i laugh i cant even put myself together so i fake it.
"Did you bought a dress for me?" I asked curious.
He grinned widely. "You finally found it." Laughed a bit more with teary eyes. "A bit too long i guess." He stopped and scoffed. "Was it rreally your bedroom anyway?"
"Sure." I looked away.
"Nah, i don't think so."
"Maybe."
"See?!" He laughed again but stopped as i looked away. He tilt my head a bit, looking at my neck, sighing. "Who marked you?" My lips seal closed. He turned me to him. "Is it her?"
"Who?"
"Lisa?" My eyes widen shocked. They really know each other in a bad way. "Don't lie!" He stared into my eyes. "Last night you weren't in the club." He speak almost silently. I gulped.
"So?" I challenged him.
"I knew it'll be just a matter of time, but why now?" I looked away. He pushed me as I lay on the bed staring at him. "I was preparing myself to propose to you when you find the dress." His eyes are glimmering with painful tears.
"I'm sorry." I bit my lip again hardly.
"You thought sorry was enough?" I stared at him and nodded.
"Ill be gone tonight."
"You think dying would help?" I nod. "Dumb." He ripped my clothes off and searched every part of me finding a bruise. "She forced you right? that bitch!"
"No."
"Don't lie!" I looked up at him into his eyes.
"I asked her to."
"Why?" I tried to push him off but he hold me firmly.
"Cause she won't let me go to the club."
"You're lying. She's stronger than that, she'd push you down and fuck the slut in you." I blinked so fast unconsciously i nod.
"So what's wrong with that I like being controlled."
"Are you sure?" I nod.
He bit my neck and suck on it, leaving a mark while forcing his way into me. I shivered scared and excited. He thrusting into me so hard i can feel blood flowing out. He seem so desperate i cant even enjoy it. I turned him slowly not letting it out and show him I'm liking it as he stopped sucking me. I'm smiling while tears flowing down to my cheeks. I got up and down on him.
He hold my hip, moving it up and down as i surrender myself completely. He smiled in pain, no different from mine. I crouched on top of him watching him as he reaches the climax. I bit my lip and smiled. I smelled his scents as if its the last time. He burst into me as I bleed. it hurt so much.
"You can let go if you want."
"Its okay." I crawled back and begin sucking on his beautiful head bobbing up and down.
"Wanna go for another round?" I nod. I suck on it harder as I try to deep troath it and almost vomit so i just suck on it hard enough to please him. "Don't push yourself." I nod and get up as i cant hold it anymore.
"Fuck me." I plead. He took my hand and make me crouch again, relaxing my hands, stretching it out and help me feel better bout it. He kneeled on the be, thrusting into me.
"Are you sure?" I nod. "You're bleeding." He seem concerned.
"I'm fine, please hurry." I'm trembling as he move slow and deep into me leaving my mouth open widely stunned. He keep being gentle and hard. He got faster and release it in me again. "I'm afraid ill get pregnant."
He scoffed as he let go and lay by my side. "Ill marry you anyway." I rolled over till i hit the ground. Why it didn't hurt? I'm pissed. He laughed a bit at my bad attempt.
"Help me up." He lift me and lay me by his side. An alarm ringing shooked me off.
"I gotta go."
"Okay."
"Don't go anywhere or I'll track her down!" I nod.
As soon as the door closed I showered quickly and left a post it note on the fridge. Niall got spare key i don't have to worry. I gotta go settle things with her.
