When the Sea is Calm

Taekwondo Spirit

AFTER almost 8 years, I have won my first official TAEKWONDO competition.

It felt surreal! Like i was nervous beyond crazy becauase i know i have this curse in taekwondo tournaments or any competition before, that i really can't win them once I'm outside the school.

Now and starting this point forward, i will slowly obliterate that curse. I started with debate, I'am gonna finish this with atleast a bronze medal in the the nationals.

I know i can do it! I will just have to train harder. I didn't took the 1 year off for nothing.

Today, i saw i lack ALL of the basics, i have to refine my skills on that area and use it as my core for the upcomming nationals. Like how Yuzuru mastered triple axel and won his tournaments and now, his on top conquring the quad battle. I know i am too late to aim for the top, but i will aim to reach the farthest limit i can.

I think i'll also compete atleast once this summer and take the brown belt promotion test. That would be nice ^_^, this is a few of those times that i feel strongly of what i want to do.

However, I can't say that i am overly joyed on my victory. I have to improve. I must improve. Can't stay like this.  I know i could have done better. I felt like a cute joke earlier :( don't want that to happen again. I want people to feel the efforts and hardship that i went through, all the drills and excersices that i have to undergone to reach this point. All the self doubt and fear i have to overcome to face the rubber mat once more after 4 years of escaping it. Because I had a hundred reasons to stay away but I only had one reason to turn back and face that challenge again and finish it with everything i can.

Every kick must count. Every sweat a statement. Every point an evidence. That i stayed, won, lost, lived and existed in the world of TAEKWONDO.

This is me and what will shape me from here on forward. Like everything i do and will continue to do to create the ME i can be proud of.