You knew, yet you did it. You knew how I felt about it, but you didn't care. Your a lier, you deceived me, yet I believed it all. Everyone could see it, yet I doubted them because I was blind. I was too blind to see what you did, I was too foolish to think a man like you, could like a monster that I am.
You said you didn't care, but deep down I knew you did. So you started to change little by little, till it took over you. I smelled the perfume but never bothered, I saw the marks but ignored it. How foolish of me to do so, but the worst thing was whenever I asked about it you got mad me, saying that I was being selfish and not trusting you.
You knew how I felt, you know it was an insecurity, you knew, yet you made it worse. I remember the day where everything fell apart. Like it was yesterday.
*flashback*
It was another day, another week.......or so I thought. I was walking home when I suddenly got a phone call. It said Matthew on it.
M-Matthew Y- you/reader
"Hello?"-M
"Whats up Matt? Something wrong?"-Y
"No, but whatever you do don't go home yet.", this got me worried a bit.
"And why am I getting locked out from my house?", I asked
"Please trust me on this one-____?_____!"-M
I saw it. Now I understand, when Matt called me I was already home so I was worried. And I had every right to be worried cause I see my husband/boyfriend Alfred in bed with another woman.
A-Alfred Y- you/reader
"You SICK F*CK, I TRUSTED YOU!!"-Y
"_-___, n-no it isn't like that-"-A
"Out."-Y
"What?"-A
"I SAID OUT, AMERICA!"-Y( It was at this moment he knew he fudged up.)
He stood frozen, astounded at the fact you called him America. Never in the span of you two knowing each other had you called him America. Even when you where mad you called him by his name. The only other time you called someone by their country was when you broke up with France, your ex-boyfriend. That time you guys where having a heated arguement over the same thing now. France cheated on you with some vela in the club. But you only saw them kiss not have sex.
He then realized that he did even more damage to you than Francis did. You where already traumatized with that memory plus the fact that you had depression. Which made you even more broken. That was when the tears came. He promised, he promised that he wouldn't do what Francis did and he didn't. He did something even worse.
"Please, don't do this ___, please."-A
By then the girl had already left the room.
"Don't do what America-"-Y
"Don't call me that."-A
" I see you have remembered that last time this happened? You know I thought you of all people would know. After all you where there when it happened.", you said softly but threateningly.
At this point the girl had already left the place.
"Please, I am sorry, I-"
"You what America? You didn't mean to? It was a mistake? You're not sorry. You of all people know how I felt about it. About someone cheating on another. You stooped even lower than he did Alfred."
" I know and I am sorry I'll make it up to you-"
"You have got to be kidding me, you'll make it up to me? With what Freddie, hugs and kisses?"
He hung his head low in shame. He was mad at himself for doing this do you. But he couldn't do anything, you where already broken as it is he felt that if he would mess up even more if he opened his mouth.
"You broke your promise, you bastard, I hope your happy now. Cause if you won't leave than I will."
"You are not going anywhere, and so am I."
"You control what I do now Freddie?" You said sarcastically. Then the room fell silent.
You began to pack everything from you clothes to your books, everything. Then all of a sudden Alfred asks "Your not gonna take these?" You spun around to see what he was talking about. You saw in his hands photo albums. "Why would I take these?" You asked. "Aren't these yours?", he replied. " Don't need them, not anymore." Then after half an hour you finished packing, you then realized how empty the place feels after you have finished packing. You decided to leave anything, any gift, any clothing that reminded you of him. That includes the promise ring and wedding ring he gave you." This is good bye, America-" You saw him flinch when you said 'America'. "Please, don't leave me.", he said softly. You ignored what he said and went out the door. That was that last time you ever saw him.
*flashback end*
It has been three years since that day, and only know you realized it was your birthday when you broke up with him. Now when you look at your self in the mirror all you can see is a woman you used to have beautiful, dazzling eyes, long, healthy hair, now replaced with dull eyes and bark bags under it, with disheveled hair, arms, neck,legs and face filled with scars. Thats right you were cutting again. Some of them were new, some where faded. There was still even blood coming out of your arms, but you could care even less. You felt nothing, you felt numbed of your senses. But seeing all those blood made you smile bitterly. Maybe this is the reason they cheated on me, after all what kind of person feels relaxed when they hurt themselves? You thought. However, you soon began to feel dizzy. You lost your balance and fell into the bathtub your own blood surrounding you. All you could do was smile because you were finally gonna have peace and quiet. Your last words were " HISTORY IS BOUND TO REPEAT ITSELF."
~~~THE END~~~
Requested by @Anime-God
