You Are My Lifeline (editing) ✔️

Chapter 21

Flashback continue.

I am sitting in the train. My parents has came to see off. Dad was continuously suggesting me that he will be coming along with me. But i insist that everything is done there and i will call as soon as i reach there. Abhi is sitting with me continuously telling what i should do and what not. Me:oK Baba ... I will do as you said...and dnt worry about me ok ?
Abhi: ok.
Then abhi ' phone started ringing.
Abhi: hello.. Maa say.
He talked to his mom before giving his phone to me.
Abhi : anu, take this. Maa wants to Talk to you.
I took his phone.
Me : hello aunty.
Aunty : anu, I need something from you.
Me : ya say aunty.
Aunty : i need a promise.
Me : a promise?
Aunty : a promise that you willnot come back to abhi ' s life after today. You willnot be the part of his life from this moment. I just need a promise from you.

How can i do that?

Me : okk............ I promise...... I will keep the promise untill the circumstances force me to.
Aunty : i know you will keep the promise.

I cut the call.
Abhi : what promise anu?

Now, what to reply him.
Me: no... Nothing just promise that..... I will keep myself safe and healthy.
Abhi : oo ok.
After Few minutes, we heard the whisel of the train. Then after one minute the train started to go. Mom dad and sis binding me goodbye and abhi is standing in a distance. But... But i can see teardrops in his eyes. Why he is crying now? He knows i cant bear a single tears in his eyes but i cant go and rub that off.
Our journey is till here. Thanks for coming into my life and gifting a bliss in this 4yrs. I love you abhi and you Are my first and last love. I cant love anyone anymore.
I took the sim out and insert another sim of bangle which i took when i came with my parents for interview and a bit basic training. This number is only with my parents and before coming i asked them to give this number to noone. And i know they willnot. I saved all my important contacts in my phone infct i saved abhi ' s too.
I will give the number to them and he will not get my contact from anywhere. I blocked facebook and reopen it with another name in the train itself. I blocked watsapp too. I dont use too many social networking sites so there is no where else he can contact me.
I am sorry abhi. But you need to stay without me for the whole life. I need to live you for your safely and i promised aunty too.. Soo i need to live live.. I am sorry extremely sorry.

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Flashback ends.

Abhi : You left me because mom told you to.?
Me : because i dnt want your life to mee in danger because of me.
Abhi : because of you?
Me : ya that astrological prediction and...
Abhi : and... And what mam. I dont give any fuck TO astrological prediction. ( he said in slightly high voice)
Me : and i and our..... Baby.... Dnt
.. Want to become.... Burden on..... You.
Abhi : what non sense you Are speaking about. You are a gift for me from God and the baby is ours and not only yours. That innocent life came because i put her or him inside you..
Me :buttt..... But....... But.. (Shrove) i killed (sob).... The innocent life.

I hold abhi 's t shirt more tightly and started crying again.
Abhi: but how did you have done the abortion all alone.
Me : after i came kolkata, I went to kolkata lifecare hospital for abortion. First, they had daif no, but after insisting the doctor she said yes as i am in just 4th week of pregnency. They asked for my parents and i said...... I said i am orphane. And about the babies father........ I.... I.... I told i dnt know.
Abhi : what? ARE YOU MAD? YOU HAVE DONE ALL THIS ALONE?
Me : i........ I.... I.... I am sorry... I killed our first child .
Abhi : anu just look at me ( he cupped my face and forced me to look into his eyes) you have done the abortion but why? Why didnt you inform me that i am going to be a father of a small life.
Me : we dnt want to become burden. You were facing too much during that period.. Career and family problem. How can i give you more tension. ? I above all when we arenot settled by ourself what we can do with other life.? Remember we planned that we will first secure about our childs future then we will bring the little one in our life. And at that time.. Neither yours nor mine future was secured, how can we manage the..........
Abhi : do you know that if you have done abortion without anyone and by chance any mistake happen you may not conceive again. ( he shaked my shoulder a bit) Andburden, burden burden.. Stop talking the non sense to me
I nodded.
Me : i... I have... Done the... Biggest mistake..... I...
Abhi : sssshh... Dont cry more babee.... Are you Alright now.
Me : i... I... Did check up after that.. Infect every year i do check up atleast.... Atleast twice... And doc.... Doctor said.... I am Alright.
Abhi : thank God. And i am only concern about you. God knows why mom told all that rubbish.
Me : mommy was worried about you and so she told. Its ok.. I understand her worry.