stars dwelled in us

chapter 4

As i heared his name, a swift shudder possessed my body. I did not clearly know why I paused when he mentioned his name but it felt like a slight breeze of nostalgia. However, not to make the situation awkward, i chose to continue.
"Well um, i'm Giselle. Giselle Rowland," I staggered as I introduced myself.
"Well starters, I came here to return your denim jacket," as soon as he finished his sentence, I became completely baffled. Demin jacket? Lots of questions started rolling into my mind neverendingly.

So I asked the question that was not been answered from the very start, "Why did you kiss me?". I suppose that when I asked him that question, he seemed startled.
"I have my reasons and i'll only tell you if," he paused for a brief moment, "if you'll be my girlfriend." My eyes widened as if an avalanche was swiftly rolling towards my direction. As he bomboared me with that 'deal' I remained speechless. As much as I want to find out why he kissed me, being in a relationship is one of the last things I have in my mind. Speaking of which, I just met him. Before getting into a serious relationship, you should get to know each other's likes and dislikes, favourite food or favourite movie. But this situation that i'm in is really unpleasant for me. "No, and you should accept my answer," I demanded. As much as I wanted to find out the actual reason why he kissed me, he wasn't being decent so I rejected his opinion. "Look i know you are searching for your answers but i think it is not the right time," he briefly explained.

He held onto my denim jacket and place it over my shoulders. I looked into his eyes and it was the first time i felt a sudden rush to my heart. It was a heavy feeling placed all over my chest like atoms exploding within me. From that moment on, i can never look at eyes the way i've looked at them before. There is something more to them. Eyes are not normal. They are able to convey deep and controversial messages to one. I turned away from him as i suppose he caught me staring into his dazzling eyes.

"Carter, where are you from?" I spoked out of curiosity. "Its personal, i already told you, your answers will come in the right time," I felt disappointed as i heard his answer. In the bright side, i'll be able to hear it soon. Will i? I was completely lost in my thoughts and Carter broke the silence by slamming me with a gut-wrenching question, "Do you slow dance?". I flipped outrageously. Internally.
"When pigs fly," then again, looking back it sounded ill-mannered.
"You fly?" he replied with a raging comeback. I plastered a genuine smile on my face.
"Its my first time seeing you smile," he was gazing at my smile. Honestly, i did not even took the time to realise that i actually smiled in a really long time. Other than reading my books, looking at the stars and my locker. Besides that, it was one of the longest conversations i've had in a while. It felt nice.

 Uh you're not going?" Silently wishing that he would insist on staying.
"Sure," he 'complied', "if you insist."
He grabbed on to the ledge of my window for support to climb out.
Before I know it, he went with the wind. The wind howled like a lonesome wolf at night. The night was heart-rendingly dark, so was my emotions and late-night thoughts cluttered admist of this bemusing mess.

I stared into the night sky, finding myself discerning the fine details of the vast splash of dark blue layered on the sky. The sudden thought of Carter interrupted my critical and detailed thoughts. My life has been smooth like waves gliding through the ocean like a leaf flying in the air, trying its best to defy gravity. But ever since Carter entered my life, he was the storm that made me flustered and perplexed. But he also did made me realise to appreciate the wonder below the waves. There was life occuring beneath the waves. The waves were the repitition of our physical appearance and the ocean is what truly defines us as a whole, our inner beauty. He made me realise that i'm beautifully treacherous. I may be beautiful but i'm powerfully dangerous enough to drown lives.

It does not mean that i'm starting to develop feelings for Carter or anything but he has shown me a completely different perspective to see life in. I just thought that world needs more people like Carter.