He gripped onto the side of my window and held his hand out. My thoughts clogged into a huge frenzy. I was in a frightful daze but he cut in my nonplussed thoughts.
"Trust me," He responded to my confusion.
"Where are we going?" I questioned.
"To see the stars," Though i could see the stars from my window, the answer made me feel safe about going along with him.When our hands touched made contact, i felt electricity hastily flowing through my blood and shocking me as a whole, leaving hair standing on my arms. It felt like magic. The sentimental affliction brought me into whole new dimension. I felt like nothing could stand between us at that very moment. He gently dragged my hand and led me out of my window.
He held my hand all the way to our destination. My heart consistently beat at a speedily rate. We walked down an empty and deserted road with no vehicles in sight. We took a left turn and led me to a building with a bright and decent outlook. It was a community centre. I pondered why we're going to see stars in the community centre but i kept my lips sealed. We took the elevator up to the highest available level, an empty open rooftop filled with greenery and flora occupying empty spaces. He then let go of my hand and i can't help but noticed how sweaty and how nasty my left palm looked.
"I have sweaty palms," I confessed.
"ditto."
"So why a community centre?"
"Why not?"
I discerned my surroundings and caught sight of two rusty chairs at the end of a white pillar at my right. I felt energetic for once and scooted over to the two empty chairs and dragged along to where Carter was standing.
"Perfect!" I muttered with a hint of ebullience under my breath.
We sat down and only looked above at the stars which patently was the prime subject.
"Giselle, why do you love the stars?" Carter inquired.
"The stars are the only way you reach out for help at night, when you're lonesome and exhausted over something," I briefly elaborated my love for stars.
"They are like a mystery I don't want to solve. I guess you can put it that way," I finally found a way to describe the stars in my perspective.
"Giselle, have you ever felt like you were like a fish? You were swimming in an ocean filled with varieties of species of fish and aqua plants. And you were swimming to nowhere with no destination in mind and all of a sudden, you swim into a black ocean filled with darkness. Like a new dimension. Everywhere you possibly turn to, you're scared that you may get hurt. And that's how i really feel right now," He devulged. It felt deep. It was deep. I was perpetually astonished that Carter has deep and conscientious thoughts. It was pleasant that he was finally opening up.
"Uh yes i have felt that way a millions of times. In my perspective its like i'm scared one day, a bolt from the blue, There's no sun. It's only the night from that faithful day onwards. No sun, no light. I'd feel traumatised. That we've taken everything for granted and nothing is left to claim. I feel scared about the future. But i mean, its in our nature right? To feel scared for our future?" I answered.
"I guess so," He replied.
"Remembered i told you about my first love? I need to find her. That's why my motive of moving into this neighbourhood was to find her."
"How would you know if she was in this neighbourhood?" I asked, being practical.
"She told me before leaving my neighbourhood that her parents wanted to move to seattle."
"Oh! Woah, your first love and i have a lot of things in common! My parents wanted to move to seattle too! And here I am. How ironic!" I said with exhilaration.
The sudden gaiety of Carter's laughter made me flash a light-hearted beam. I did not clearly know why he cackled but it was an entertaining laughter he got.
"Tell me more about yourself," Carter commanded.
"When I was young, I met this wonderful boy whom made my life beautiful and fulfullingly abstract. We were like magnets. We were inseparable according to my old folks. There was a bond, a wiring connection between the both of us," I succintly.
"But that one faithful day, I was out riding my newly bought scooter with the wind relentlessly brushing against my oily skin. I wanted to hang out with that boy. But we weren't able to. Not very certain about why he couldn't hang out. Little did I know that, that day, I lost my everything. Him. I lost him. Thanks to a sudden fall that occured. I fell down while riding my scooter. I fell with a huge 'pang' which happened to be my head and the ground in contact. The impact was so strong that my mind lost some of my delightful memories of him. Even his face," I said in low spirits.
"Appallingly, I have a scar on my left knee which its cells refuses to grow for some sort of reason. And when my old folks got to know about my 'severe' accident, they brought me to the hospital to check if i suffered from any other injuries other than a scar on my left knee. Thus, that's when i got to know i suffered from amnesia. When my old folks were in the hospital, they came across their old childhood friend, Mitch. Mitch told them that he has a house that he wants to sell away. He gave them an agreeable discount and therefore, We moved away. Since I've presumably forgotten mostly about that boy, they said to forget about him which is better cause they accuse i will suffer from heart pain. They wanted me to start anew."
"Amnesia," Carter mumbled but apparently I heard it.
"Sadly yes. That's one of the focal points whereas I listen to Elvis."
"hm?" Carter looked muddled.
"Elvis is able to answer your questions evidently through his songs. Its like a fog, awaiting for a forceful and savage wind to be blown away. Elvis was the sudden ravening wind. In the clearing, i found myself. Even some joyful memories of that boy."
"Elvis' songs brings back memories of him. I want to find him someday, you may never know. He might be someone I know from school or something! Or someone beside me," Carter looked bewildered as I spoked.
"You may never know," He slowly casted a smooth smirk on his face.
"So, why are you having these kind of thoughts Carter? Like why? There's got to be a reason behind all these deep thoughts of yours," I implied.
"My life consists of deep meanings. I need them to live. I need an answer," He said.
"Maybe one day, you'll find someone whom answer all your questions. Someone whom is willing to hear you out," I reasoned.
"I've already found that one person and I love her," He responded. My heart started beating.
"Who is she," In all hopes, I secretly wished it was me but yet i knew it wasn't.
"She's," He paused.
My heart was waiting with anticipation growing.
"Giselle Rowland," He placed a graceful grin on his face.
My heart stopped. Delibrately. I was speechless. How could someone love me?
"I want to start a bright future with you. You make it seem easy without trying. Your love is pure and truthful. You have faith. When i'm with you, it feels like time isn't running out. Time stops. When i'm with you, the stars shines the brightest. I've been meaning to tell you this but, will you be my girlfriend?" Carter was on one knee and pulled out a ocean blue rose. I was astounded. I tried my best to vanquish those tears welling up in my eyes but couldn't. I was reserved at that moment. I had to be pragmatic. So I exactly knew my answer.
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stars dwelled in us
RomanceHas the stars answered your prayers? Have you felt like you were never enough? Have you felt like you needed someone to answer all your questions that were left unanswered?