Yandere's Aren't Misunderstood(Canada/2p!Canada)

Chapter 3

It's so cold...it's so numb...but to be honest the cold never bothered me anyway. I feel at home...its so peaceful once you get past the hunger, speaking of which How long have I been here anyway?

I looked to my right and saw toys and such buried under the lake. For example there were bottles, boats, and toy planes, even sand castle buckets and small toys.

I smiled,"I guess it doesn't matter, after all as long as I'm here I won't have to go through that hell again." I said only to have my voice silence in the water and have bubbles float out my mouth towards the surface.

I couldn't help but giggle a bit as I swam towards the abandoned toys. Looking left and right I watched as the tiny fish swim around me with their beautiful scales glittering in the sunlight that poked through the waters surface.

I stared after them before going back to my previous mission which was to see how many things I could find under this wonderful lake.

Using my dull fingernails I dug out all the things u could find and put them in a pile. I ended up finding things like coins, necklaces, and other lost prized possessions. I even saw a wedding ring under some dirt and I reached out to grab it. Sadly my glasses accidentally became blurry and I missed it causing me to drop it someplace in the darker part of the lake.

Frowning I tried scouring the floor for it but to my displeasure it was impossible without some light. Light...I wonder what it's like to feel the warm sunlight shining on my face.

I looked up in the direction where the sky was and couldn't help but feel reality weigh down on me once again.
"I can't feel anything anymore, but...I miss it. I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all." I whispered To myself only to choke on some more water before remembering my position

I sat down at at the bottom of the lake as I wrapped my arms around my legs, my burning eyes filled with tears as I remembered that I can't be selfish.

'I'm a country, I have so much paperwork to do and if I continue this I'll be selfish to all my residents and visitors...but I can't; it hurts.' I thought sadly to myself. I glanced down at my healed wrists that were covered with scars.

I tried to fight back the oncoming tears and I fell on top of my back and rolled onto my side trying to curl myself into a ball to comfort myself.

"I can't deal with this. I can't...please... There's gotta be some other way.
I don't want to go back to the outside world...I'm too scared." I thought to myself as the water made it had to distinguish the tears from the lakes water.

I closed my eyes, desperately trying to make myself disappear but I only managed to slowly fall into a deep sleep as I felt the numbness wash over me again.