JEALOUSY HURTS, LOVE TOO - LARRY STYLINSON FANFICTION

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When Harry woke up the next morning, he realized that Louis was next to him and the feeling in his chest nearly made his heart burst. Louis was looking at him when their eyes met and smiled at Harry.

"I'm so happy that we're together again," Louis whispered and caressed Harry's arm gently. Harry had goose bumps all over his body, Louis' touch felt so good.

"Me too," he whispered back and gave Louis a kiss onto his mouth. Louis smiled at Harry and took his hand in his. His touch made Harry close his eyes.

Suddenly he felt how Louis let his fingertips run down his arm. Now that it wasn't dark in the room anymore Louis would probably notice . . . Harry suddenly jerked his arm away from Louis and turned around so that he turned his back to his boyfriend. He stayed quiet as he was staring out of the window.

Louis gently touched his shoulder. "Hey, Harry . . . please talk to me." he said softly and caressed Harry's shoulder.

Harry didn't turn around immediately but after a while, he did. He was at the verge of tears as he looked into Louis' eyes. Louis sat up in bed and lifted his cover up.

"Come here" he said quietly, making a sign with his head.

Harry quickly moved over to Louis, put his head onto his chest and nuzzled close to him, wrapping his arm around Louis' warm body. Louis caressed Harry's hair. They stayed like this for a while until Harry started talking.

"I'm sorry, I . . . " he said as he felt a lump building in his throat. "I know I have promised that I'd never do it again but . . . I was so sad and I missed you so much that I didn't know what do do . . ." Harry sobbed and looked at Louis. "I missed you so much but . . . at the same time I was so mad at you that I . . . I don't know . . ."

"It must hurt so bad . . ." Louis said and gently traced Harry's rough skin. "I wasn't aware how much you've suffered." Louis gave Harry a gentle kiss onto his forehead and wiped his tears away. "Love, don't cry, okay? I'm here with you now and please . . . you have to believe me that you're the only one for me. You don't have to worry about Danielle or Briana . . . they don't mean anything to me. Not at all." They older boy let his hand run up and down Harry's bare back.

Harry sobbed and kissed Louis' neck. "The cuttings didn't hurt as much as it hurt to be without you, Lou. And I'm sorry for doing this again although I promised you that I would stop."

"If I can help you Harry, please tell me, okay?"

"You're here, that's the only thing that helps me getting away from it," Harry whispered. "It feels so good to have you here, honestly."

Louis put his fingers under Harry's chin and pushed it up to kiss him gently.

"Now I'm here with you and I promise to spend as much time with you as possible. And you know, that's exactly why I want us to win the trial. Just look at your arms – you hurt yourself because you missed me. I couldn't spend Christmas with you, I couldn't see my family and I think these reasons are enough to at least try. I can't live by knowing that you hurt yourself, Harry. I don't want you to suffer just because of our shitty contracts. I've talked to Pearlman a lot during the last months and he's very confident about the issues."

Harry sighted. "I really hope so. I love you, Louis."

"I love you too, baby," Louis answered. "Oh and . . . I have to tell you something."

Harry got up from Louis' chest suddenly. He felt sad all of a sudden as he looked into Louis' eyes but couldn't read him.

Louis looked down for a second. "I . . . I got a call from the PR guy yesterday and . . . "