Casper ➳ H.S {Short Story}

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i liked writing this bit 

We got married privately one month later. Casper only wanted a small amount of people, some friends and kids from the home.

That was also a very good day, Casper smiled and I felt proud and happy and I really wished you two were here because, Mum, Gemma, you would have helped her get ready and coo over  her dress and tell her how beautiful she looks.

I wish she had her Dad to walk her down too.

She was crying when she made it to the top and I smiled at her and she knew why – because I knew her Dad was there – in our hearts.

That day was the day I said ‘I love you’ over 100 times.

When we danced together back in our flat I held her so tightly and she was happy again.

I had fixed her,

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Congratulations, Mum and Gemma.

You would be so proud right now, I hope, if you could see her.

She’s so tiny and fragile.

She has Casper’s hair and my eyes.

She makes little, tiny noises sometimes and when I held her.

I want to be with her. All my life I want her and Casper. She is my everything -now and I have to stay, breathing, for her.

She is me and I am her and she was made with the person I love.

You know that little room I talked about?

That’s her room now.

Regan – that’s her name.

Regan Gemma-Anne.

After all of you.

Mum, Gemma and Casper’s Mother – Regan.

You are not gone Mum, Gemma – you live in her. You live on in my Regan.

I know you do.

Casper is always happy now and so am I.

We barely ever cry. Never.

Regan does though.

Casper had to quit work – so I’m moving jobs. I actually have a qualification.

You proud?

I worked hard but now I work in a proper office with other people.

I get to talk about my Wife and Regan and how work was when I get back home to my girls and life is better for me now.

I know I don’t have to curl up with you Gemma and cry with you anymore and I’m sorry.

But I love this so much.

I’m with people who love me Mum and I am never alone.