Smile (Phan)

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Drunk.
High.
Lonely.
Gay.

things that describe Dan Howell right now.

Two of those adjectives though, Dan will never admit to anyone.

Have you guessed which ones?

Lonely. Gay.

Dan grew up with a father who hates 'faggots', as his dad calls them.

Once, Dan kissed a boy and he liked it.

Oh he liked it very much but...his dad did not.

He beat Dan to the pulp.

He yelled at Dan, he slapped Dan.

In the end, he full on beat him.

What did Dan do?

He just took it. What could he really do?

From that day, Dan told himself that he's not allowed to be gay.

So he changed his look, instead of that emo gay boy.

He became this edgy, 'punk' dude who spends all his time drinking and smoking weed.

His asshole of friend's made him the horrible person he is today.

He and his friends torment the one and only, Phil Lester. Why? Just for the fuck of it

Dan Howell has a secret of his own.

He's in love with Phil.

Love is a strong word.

Strong is something Phil is not.

Phil is close to breaking.

Dan knows this.

So what does he do?

He off at some party getting drunk and high. Then most likely fuck some girl, to continue to pretend he's straight. While Phil worries if he can trust this boy named dan. Sadly, Phil makes the wrong choice.

Never trust the boy named dan.