My Art Book

Fed up! (Sketch dump and rant)

So I really don't know why I can't seem to draw anything lately. I thought I was over my art drought (induced by my past relationship that ended in January), but apparently not. Now I feel different, it's like I have the passion, but every time I try to draw anything I get so stinking irritated with myself. It's like everything just looks bad to me! I feel impatient, moody, and just down right irritated when I sit down to draw anymore.

I honestly feel like my past relationship sucked the life out of me, and thought I feel a lot better emotionally, I don't feel up to par creatively. The worst part of this is that I just feel hopeless and like I haven't done anything worth talking about this summer concerning art. I work full time now (I'm grateful for the work and income) so that has sucked the energy out of me, but I really don't think that should be the reason for not being able to draw.

Anyway, I just had to get out the fact that I'm starting to feel hopeless. I haven't felt like myself in a year and I'm just wondering when this will end so I can make good art again and be completely ok. This next picture is what happened a few nights ago. I was angry and just plain tired about not being able to draw and the fact that our one year anniversary would have been on the thirtieth of this month.

This isn't me! I've never drawn angrily like this. I didn't post the other pictures because they were mad scribbles lol.

Anyway, that's pretty much what I've done this week. I guess at this point I just need to keep fighting and make myself drawn. Never thought I'd ever have to MAKE myself draw because it's always been like breathing to me, but there's a first for everything.

Thanks for reading, by the way. Hopefully I'll draw something I'm proud of before college starts again.

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