Defying Gravity

III

According to the Social Psychology, there are four stages of influences in Interpersonal Attraction.

Interpersonal Attraction is defined as a positive feeling about another person. It can take many forms, including like, love, friendship, lust and admiration.

The first one was the Physical Attractiveness. It is always the main point or reason why the person caught our attention or why he have developed likeness or the feeling of having crush.

Men are more likely the one who developed attraction by the physical attraction. Kaya hindi ako naniniwala dyan sa sinasabi na minahal kita kung sino ka. Bullshit.

Papansinin mo ang tao dahil me kaaya-ayang mukha ito. If he or she was ugly, nunca na papansinin or kakausapin natin ang tao. We are living in a world full of hypocrites.

We judged the ugly, the handicap, the flaw, and everything that doesn't pass on our pleasing standard.

Pag ang tao ay pangit at nakatingin sa iyo, we call them rapist or manyak. Habang kung gwapo or maganda naman ang nakatingin sa atin, kulang nalang maghugis puso ang mga mata natin.

What we see in our eyes is what really the first thing that matters. Papangalawa nalang ang ugali ng tao pagkatapos natin makilala ito.

Napailing na lamang ako. I breathed in and closed my eyes.

Hapon na at nandito pa rin ako nakatambay sa lilim ng mataas na puno. After walking out the supposed rock climbing ay napunta ako rito. I haven't even had my lunch at nawalan na ako ng gana kumain pa.

I stayed for another hour before I went up and changed my clothes in my room. Titignan ko nalang muna bukas ang maaari kong gawin sa iba pa nilang mga sports na ini-offer.

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When I reached my room, doon ko lang naamoy ang sarili ko. Amoy araw na ako kahit nakaupo lang naman ako at nasa lilim pa ng malaking puno.

I lazily dropped my bag at the floor and jumped on my bed. I snuggled my pillow and breathed calmly.

When minutes passed and I felt that my body temperature dropped to normal ay iniisa-isa ko na ang pag-alis ng damit ko.

Walking naked, I went in the comfort room.

I stayed for almost an hour scrubbing my body. When I went out, drying my body with the towel, I picked my over sized gray shirt and a sweat pants.

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7:35 P.M.

I was choosing for the dinner's menu when I smelled the same smell I inhaled when I bumped in at the guy this morning. Agad naman akong napatingin sa gilid ko. Hindi ko alam pero ang amoy ng lalaking ito ay napakasarap amoyin. It was intoxicating nice. Hindi masakit sa ilong kaya talagang tumatak sa pang-amoy ko.

He was talking at the woman in his side. The woman was undeniably beautiful. A perfect pair. Napailing nalang ako and gave my order at the lady.

After getting my order, I went at the same table I had when I take my breakfast this morning. The cafeteria was slowly getting crowded. Umiingay na rin dahil sa mga kabataan na kausap ang mga kasama nito.

Ibinaling ko naman ang tingin ko sa food counter. The woman was now touching the guy shoulder blades, and it seems like she was flirting with the guy. Napakunot naman ako ng noo.

Umiling na lamang ako at ibinigay ang atensyon ko sa pagkain.

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After having my dinner ay agad na naglalakad ako sa palibot. Enjoying the night with the nature.

Contrasting last night, maitim ang kalangitan ngayon na kahit ang liwanag ng buwan ay natatabunan. At mukhang uulan pa dahil sa hamog at ang kawalan ng mga bituin. It was what I learned when I was a child.

Tuwing gabi, titignan namin ang kalangitan kung me mga bituin ba o wala. When there are stars in the night sky, sasabihin naming hindi uulan. At kung wala naman ay uulan ito.

And with seconds passed ay unti-unti kong naramdaman ang patak ng mahinang ulan. Napatawa na lamang ako. It always worked.

Dinadama ang bawat patak ng ulan na unti-unting lumalakas ay nilakad ko ang daan papunta sa silid na iniookupa ko. Not minding I was getting wet after seconds.

Matagal na rin ng naligo ako sa ulan. It was actually when I had my first heart break. Funny how we love getting soaked in rain when our heart is breaking. When tears are flowing and the coldness is the only thing that would hug us.

Pero ngayon, hindi ako naliligo sa ulan dahil sa nasasaktan ako. I am under the rain because my heart feels empty. It feels dead.

I stopped walking and closed my eyes. I counted the seconds passed habang nakatingin sa kalangitan na nakapikit. Dinadama ang naglalakihang butil ng ulan. Ang malamyos na sakit na dala nito habang hinahalikan ang balat ko.

How was it possible to feel physical pain and soothing feeling at the same time?

Hanggang sa hindi ko na nadama ang sakit ng pagbuhos ng ulan. I slowly opened my eyes to see a pink colored umbrella. Napakunot naman ang noo ko. Dahan dahan ay ibinaba ko ang tingin ko sa kung sino ang me dala ng payong.

"Stupid," and he grabbed my hand making me hold the umbrella. Napakunot naman ang noo ko sa lalaking nasa harap ko.

It was the same guy I bumped this morning. The same guy who I saw in the cafeteria earlier and the guy who is with me under the pink umbrella.

"A-anong ginagawa mo?" Ngayon ko lang nadama ang lamig ng ulan. Nangangatal ang aking labi that caused me to stutter.

Bumuntong hininga naman ito. "Stupid," and he grabbed my hand making me follow him.

Ano bang ginagawa ng isa na ito?

"T-teka..." I said and grabbed my hand away from him. Huminto naman ito at tumingin sa akin.

"Sino ka ba?" Bigla naman itong bumaling sa ibang direksyon. Kumunot naman ang noo ko.

Ibinalik naman agad nito ang tingin sa akin. His eyes feels dead. Kahit anong ganda ng mukha nito, ang kanyang mga mata ay kasingtulad ng akin. It feels dead but with a hint of something I can't point out. Ito lang ata nakaiba sa akin, it might feel dead but there is more something behind it. Hindi katulad sa akin na patay.

Bumuga naman ito ng hangin at umiling sa akin. "Don't get yourself sick," and he run. He run away from me not minding he would get wet from the rain.