Drumsticks and Bass Guitars (5SOS)

17- Because Of You.

-It had been 3 weeks since Hannah left the guys. A few days ago they started their American part of the tour.

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I woke up to the annoying ringing of my phone and I kept my eyes closed rolling over in my bed. It rang the semiconductor time, then a third. I sigh sitting up and throwing the covers off myself before getting up and answering the call.

"Hey, it's Luke!" I hear a cheery voice call from the other side of the line.

"Oh, hey Luke" I say yawning "what's up?" I ask

"Well what's up is I got you a ticket for anywhere! You can finish the tour with us!" He says, from his tone I could tell he was smiling.

"Really?!" I ask waking up quickly "do the other guys know?" I ask

"Nope. Are you gonna go?" He questions.

______________________a few days later....__________________________

After I got off my plane I texted Luke and he said they where at the Starbucks next to their hotel. I got into a cab heading to where they were. I stepped out after paying and walked into the coffee shop smiling. I saw the guys in the corner of the shop and I sat in the extra seat at their table.

"Hannah!" Calum and Michael say and I stand giving them hugs.

"Where is Ashton?" I ask looking around the small coffee place with a hopeful look on my face.

"Oh, he's outside. He will be back soon" Michael says taking a sip of his drink.

"I'll go and surprise him then" I say standing, again smiling.

"No." Calum says a little too quickly "he's on the phone" he adds

"Gosh Calum. I'm sure that Ashton won't mind if I say hey. I'll just wait with him till he's done on the phone" I say laughing lightly before starting to walk towards the door.

"But I wanna talk! I haven't seen you in so long!" Michael says grabbing my hand and turning me back towards him. I sigh laughing as I pull my arms from my grip and walking then opening the door but before anyone could protest anymore I searched for my boyfriend around the street. I saw him... But I didn't want to see what I did.

Ashton was holding hands with a girl then she planting a short kiss onto his lips. My heart broke. More like It shattered. I stood there shocked, with wide eyes.

"I'm sorry Hannah... I didn't know." Luke says sincerely. I knew he was telling the truth as Michael and Calum caught up to me and Luke.

"Well tell Ashton he doesn't have to hide it from his girlfriend anymore, because he no longer has on" I say almost crying about to leave.

"Hannah-"

"No Michael, you aren't any better than he is. You helped him in trying to hide it from me. You too Calum." I say cutting him off and a tear slips down my face and I angrily wipe it off my face turning around and walking away from the scene. I never thought this would happen. I was staying in the same hotel as them so I quickly walked inside and rushing into my room sitting on the couch. Seconds later crying the tears I was holding in. After I calmed myself down I saw my guitar case, holding the guitar Ashton got for me! made me feel like I want to smash it on the ground! and cry at the same time. It's because i trusted him, I guess I shouldn't have out so much trust in him as I did, same with Calum and Michael. I guess Luke is the only one I can.

I would have called Jay, but he would have flipped out. I didn't feel like dealing with anything at the moment anyway so I didn't. I just laid there watching tv. I had left my phone on the table next to me and I saw it light up one after another, with the guys names. I didn't bother answering and I sat up looking at the guitar before picking it up and placing it my my lap and strumming the chords hearing the music. I got up and walked into the bathroom applying makeup and fixing myself up before getting my camera out of my bag and getting it ready before getting out my phone studying the chords before turning on the camera.

"Hey guys, I thought it would be the perfect time to do a cover of a song. It really describes how I'm feeling and I hope you like it..." I say before strumming the guitar

"I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I try my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

Because of you

Because of you...." I sing and signing off then turning off the camera and watching it over before putting it on the YouTube Chanel I had created.

*knock knock knock*

I stand up walking to the door and looking through the peep hole facing the blue eyes of Luke. I open it slowly and I saw he was alone and let him inside and closing the door. He sat on the couch and I sat beside him

"Hannah, I didn't know, he never told me. I'm so sorry. I really can't believe he did that" Luke confesses, I nod.

"I understand Luke, don't worry. I feel ok right now. I just can't really wrap my mind around what happened... And the fact that Calum and Michael were trying to hide it from me as well." I say placing my hands in my lap and looking at them instead of him. "Wait, do the guys know where I'm staying?" I ask a little more alert.

"No, I snuck out of our hotel room and came here. But we are on the same floor so be careful if you want to avoid them."