Demolition Lovers

It started out with a kiss

I said bye to Gerard and left to lunch. I mean, he is a very introverted guy, but I mean he probably is cool, I just need to get used to it more. I know he probably hates me because I pulled away from him but i wish I didn't. His lips felt like Cotten candy and it just felt right. The true story is I had thought someone was walking into the bathroom and I don't need him and me getting hurt.  But I don't know what to do. I've let my guard down so many times and end up crushed and used and thrown into the trash like I'm nothing. I get my lunch out of my backpack and chew on my apple. I know Gerard probably doesn't want to be friends with me, but I mean he seems pretty cool, I can tell he regretted giving me his jacket, but I wish I had said something more instead of "why". I mean that made me sound so pricky like what was I doing? I finish my apple and head back to the bathroom my eyeliner was running low, and it felt weird on my eye. Before leaving I heard someone eating, "hey, Gerard- is, is that you?" I hear Gerard say "oh um yea uh" He leaves the bathroom and says "I usually eat it here, it's really quiet." I nod and say "well lunch is about to end. What is your next class?" He responds with Science I nod my head as he shows me to the class room "In case you were wondering the teachers name, his name is Mr.Ross. There's a rumor going around that he's having a casual affair with the music teacher Mr.Urie. He usually is quiet so if your ears are good your lucky" I nod as we walk into class and sit down in an empty seat near the back. Gerard sits next to me, and we chit chat until class starts. "Good morning class today we are going to be doing something we don't usually never do but I think it will kick-start your grade if you do it right- a group project. Hear are the list of names." Says Mr.Ross, I kinda hope I get Gerard, but I don't know. I end up getting put with a guy names Ray, he seems cool, but I still go ask Mr.Ross something. "Hey Mr.Ross? I was wondering if I could be in  group with Gerard instead? I'm new and he's the only person I know..... I feel it would be easier-" Mr. Ross cuts me off. "You don't have to say that just say I wanna be in a group with Gerard I don't need the extra bs." Wow. Someone must be REALLY salty. "Sure, you can Franklin? Is it?" I respond "No it's Frank" He grins at me and says "I read off of what's on my attendance so Franklin it is." He redirects to the rest of the class and says "Ray, you are going to be re-grouped with Pete, and Gerard you will be re-grouped with Franklin." I walk back all eyes on me, and some whispers. What the fuck are they on about? Gerard smiles and says. "Oh thank god, Pete is kinda clingy. He can get annoying at times haha." I smile as well, and say. "Are you still taking tat really long nap today?" I see his eyes fly open. I already knew his plans, I heard him in the graveyard." He looks at me and says, "I guess not, so wanna meet up after school to work on the project?" I didn't wanna say my house, because I'd probably get a lecture on homophobia after Gerard leaves, or my father is out with another slut I don't know when he's home and when he isn't, so I say "I- sure yea that works, but I don't know where you wanna work on it?" He said my house would work better, so I said that was fine. I see he's telling him Mom that he will be working on a project and he frowns then says "yea it's fine with my Mom." I look a bit concerned but I smile, after everyone is talking for a bit Mr.Ross starts to talk again and says "okay, so now you might be wondering what we are doing, and it is on illnesses, mental, or physical, and you can pick whatever you want. It will be due on October 30th, and if you don't present it, you will be unable to go to the Halloween dance.-." Before he can finish the bell rings. He yells out, "Remember this counts as a big part of your grade!" We all file out for our last class, Music. 

After about 2 hours of just talking we all leave and as we are walking home, I feel a rock hit the back of my head as I turn around I just feel massive regret of even turning around. There 15 feet from me, is John. "Hey fag I see you have a boyfriend, what are guys gonna go to, fuck eachother?" I blush, ha I wish. "No! We are working on a science project!" He laughs. "Oh right isn't it on human anatomy?" He throws a rock at my face, and runs away. Gerard asks if I'm okay, I just laugh and say, "yea I'm a-okay!" We walk home, and I check to see if my Dad is home, which he isn't, he's probably at some strip club with another slut. We wouldn't do anything, yet my Dad would think that and kick Gerard out. I close the door and think what else would this year behold.