Things Change {AmazingPhil/Danisnotonfire Fanfic}

Skype {1}

Kandee's POV

"Hey Dan." I say trying to sound cheerful.

"Hey!" He says back.

"I am all packed so I thought, why not skype you!"

Dan cheekily smiles. "How's London?" He asks.

"Great!" I lied. It's been lonely and depressing. I'm not happy at all. But I'm getting by.

"Well you're going on holiday tomorrow right?"

"Yep!" I say popping the P, causing Dan to laugh. "How's living with Phil?" Dan and Phil moved in a flat together, which is nice, I just wish I was living with them.

"Great! It's cool because he's a youtuber, and we like the same bands and tv shows. But it would have been even better if you were here..." He mutters the last part.

"Where's Phil?" I ask trying to avoid, and change the subject.

"Hold on." He says as he turns his head. "PHIL!" He yells.

"YES?" I hear Phil reply.

"KANDEE'S ON SKYPE!" He says waiting for a responds. There isn't one. Instead, a few seconds later an out of breathe Phil appears.

"Hey!" He greets me with that familiar hand motion.

I smile. "Hey Phil."

"Are you excited to go back home?" He asks me as he takes a seat next to Dan on his bed.

"Eh." I shrug. "But you guys are coming to the wedding right?!"

"Of course!" They say excitingly.

"Fantastic!! I will see you guys in a week then!" I say.

*Ding Dong* Their doorbell rings.

"Pizza's Here!" Dan says.

"Well I'll let you guys enjoy you're pizza. Bye guys." I say.

"Bye!!" They both say back before turing skype off.

I sigh, then grab my notebook.

I start to write:

So I just got finished skyping Dan and Phil. I miss them so much.
I'm leaving for home tomorrow and staying for a week before Dan and Phil join me there for my sisters wedding. I still feel terrible for not telling Dan the whole thing that happened with Phil.

The guilt is eating me up everytime I talk to eithef of them. Sometimes I just want to blurt it out.

Anyway, my hair is still the bright purple I dyed it. I've been dying my hair a lot. Mostly bright unnatural colours. It all kinda began when I left Manchester...

Also work seems to be going well. I haven't been fired! That's a plus!It's been hard not knowing many people here. Sure, I've made a few friends. Just no one like Dan or Phil. I felt the same way when I moved across the world to live in Manchester, but I feel much lonelier without Dan and Phil.

I've been depressed a lot more recently. And I've sorta stopped eating... Well kinda.

If someone cooks me food, or if someone's there I feel like I have to eat. I still feel guilty as hell, but I eat. Other than that, not really. I've had little snacks, as in some fruit. But I've had it every couple of days. I've lost about 25 pounds since I last saw Dan and Phil.

I just feel so unhappy at the moment, like no matter what I try and do to be happy, like losing weight to not feel fat, I always find a way to remind myself about how sad I am inside. 

I guess that's all for now. I'm just sorta glad I have this notebook, it's basically a place for me to vent.

-K

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A/N

Ayye it's out!! WooHoo! I'm going to try my best to update regularly! I'm still coming up with were the plot is going, so if you have any suggestions, any at all, comment them down below!

I'm also going to make a cover soon! So don't worry about that!

That's all! Thanks!

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