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Chapter 4

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Jacob and Carter sat in front of the TV and got lost in endless boring sitcoms instead. All the while Jacob sat looking nervous for absolutely no reason. Carter wasn't sure what was up with him.

Carter was starting to get suspicious. Jacob hadn't been acting like his usual self and he was becoming even more and more secretive when it came to his phone and other electronics. He'd never had a problem with Carter using them before but when she'd opened up his computer to look up a new season of Dance Moms he'd flipped out and carried her out of his room in a flash.

Jacob kept glancing at Carter every now and then. He was unsure of what to say in the current situation. He decided to just come out and say it, fuck it.

"Hey, you know that one convention you took me to? Yeah I'm obsessed with YouNow and have been binge watching videos from a bunch of broadcasters I am now also obsessed with." Jacob took a breath after letting that all out.

He wasn't sure how great of a conversation starter that would be. He also didn't know why he was suddenly so shy about his newfound love for YouNow. Jacob just knew that he was maybe ...just maybe ...embarrassed of the other things YouNow had made him start to think about. Just a few days ago he'd been whining about how boring the convention was and how he'd prefer to stuff his face with endless calories than be there. But look at him now.

He sat quietly and fought back the blush trying to force it's way on his face and squeezed the life out of a small brown throw pillow. Carter raised her eyebrow at his red face, she crossed her arms and sat back staring at Jacob in a complete loss for words.

It was one thing for him to be completely secretive out of no where but for Jacob, the Jacob to blush and be embarrassed. Carter was sure this was something big, big enough to get the usually laid back Jacob to turn into a damn tomato.

"What's wrong my dear?" Carter asked, a slow smirk crawling on her face.

"Nothing!" Jacob replied, a little too quickly. His voice wavered in surprise and he was absolutely red. Just so red. Carter was beginning to get pissed off.

"What's wrong? I'm serious Jacob. What the hell has been going on with you?" Her tone hinted at the fact that Carter was in full nag mode.

She seemed ready to grab the nearest newspaper and roll it up into her deadly weapon and harass the hell out of Jacob until he told her what was going on with him. Jacob was beyond flustered, he didn't know whether to run to some random room and hide for the rest of the night or tell the dangerous girl he called his best friend what she wanted to know.

Jacob had debated the urgency of this conversation with himself for a long time. But when all the internal arguments had ceased he was a left with a simple answer.

"Carter....I think I might be gay" Jacob broke down crying. He had never cried so much in his entire 19 year existence yet here he was, a literal human river.

Carter hugged Jacob close and whispered in his ear. "I know Jakey..."

Jacob wiped the tears out of his eyes and looked to her, confused. "Wait...how? I mean I...It's just that I didn't even really know..."

Carter snickered. "Dude it's totally obvious, have you seen the way you stare at boys. I mean I think you might be more into them than I am" she says giggling.

I stifle sobs and slowly stop myself from crying anymore. "Well...what would it mean? I don't know what that entails..."

Carter purses her lips. "Hun, it doesn't entail anything except being yourself "

I smile and pull her in for another hug.
"Thank you Carter"