Until I Die

Dear Diary

I sing the song I made up when I was 13. So far, it's the best song I made.

Dear diary,

Today has been a little awful.

Too many people acting foolish.

Too many heartaches and breaking.

Too much to bear..

Thinking of my life.. thinking of all the sadness.. thinking if I should die.

Dear diary,

Why is everybody so cruel?

Nobody seems to even notice or care

when I stand there and shed my tears and run away, and every day

I'm hiding, I'm dying, I'm broken, can't be fixed.

I'm too weak, I'm so bleak, I think I'm gonna take a risk.

Since nobody seems to see me, and nobody really cares....

Soon there'll be crimson blood, too much to bear....

Dear diary,

I hate to break it to you, but I am so through.

So many heartbreaks

So many tears

So much pain.

Wondering about the afterlife.. maybe it's worthwhile.

Dear diary,

I think that in order to die, you must live first.

And I have, but I don't want my life anymore and now I'm torn. All I want is to be done with

All the hiding, the dying, the brokenness, it can't be fixed,

Being too weak and so bleak. Thinking of the risk.

Since nobody even sees me, and nobody even cares....

Soon there'll be crimson blood, it's too much to bear....

And all I ever wanted, was to be loved

By everyone, especially you.

But of course, it's not me you love.

It's someone else who's better,

And worthwhile too....

Dear diary,

I'll never write in you again.

You hold too many secrets

You know too much of the truth

You have so much within you....

I'm gonna miss you.

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A/N: This song actually is by me. I know it's kinda depressing and sad but, what're you gonna do, you know?

Also, this girl does have a diary. It will be shown in future chapters :)