I just wish... | Phil x Reader

Ill protect you

Your pov

Your mind was going crazy, you swear you phil say i which could possible lead to multiple things,

I hate you
I miss you
I need you
I want you
I love you

You had always had a thing for Phil even when you were dating r-p-n and you know thats bad but your ex always used to do that anyway. You hated yourself so much but when you were with Phil he made you feel different and what he made you feel was beautiful.
"P-phil?"
You look over and he was asleep you take a moment to appreciate his beauty

He would never love you y/n
Your fat
Oi fuckwit go kill yourself

The voices came back...all you wanted was peace obviously you couldnt tell anyone because everyone would think your crazy..were you crazy? The more you stared at Phil the voices would yell louder, you were trapped inside your own head. You shake phil to wake him up you were terrified.
"Phil?!"
His eyes flicker open before hugging you.
"Whats wrong?!"
You cry in his shoulder you were sick of crying, sick of pain
"There..there back"
Phil was the only one how knew about your voices and he supported you though it all.
"Oh... y/n"
He pulled away and wiped a tear away from your cheek.
"Focus on me" he held your hand.
The butterflies in your stomach flew crazy inside.
The more you stared the more you realized he was gorgeous

Jet black hair
Crystal blue eyes
Pale smooth skin

"Any better?" He asked as he snapped you out of your trance.
"Much better" you smile.
He wraps you in a huge bear hug and whispers in your ear
"Ill protect you"