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Black and white. Everything is black and white. I'm alone in my bedroom; my black and white bedroom. Everything is dull and boring.
No one loves me. I have no soulmate. I couldn't love anyone else, or I'd live in constant fear of them not loving me back. I couldn't survive like that.
I feel my eyes sting with tears. This is the fourth time this week- the fourth time I make empty promises that it'll be the last.
I can't go on like this. Everyone around me has color in their life. Purpose in life. Reason to stay alive. Everyone except me.
I'm home alone. I've been waiting for a day like this to come; an opportunity for the black and white to be set free. There's a rope hidden in my sock drawer.
I tie it carefully, tears streaming down my face and prayers choking out from my mouth.
"Please, God, p-please...
Tell me there's color in heaven."
I tie it to the ceiling and step onto a wooden chair. My head fits through the loop. I don't need a note- that would be a waste of time.
I sigh and wipe my eyes.
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Neon - a Peterick AU
FanfictionAU where everything is colorless until you meet your soulmate Patrick has a problem. It's not that he can't find his soulmate to give him color- no, it's just the opposite. He can't find the person who already gave him color. Patrick's POV Soul punk...
