Supernaturally Supernatural

Phobia

Type of Chapter: Imagine

Pairing: Sam x Phobia!Reader

Writer: YoloCat1

Warning: Language, Monophobia (Fear of being alone), a Panic Attack, Depressing Thoughts. This may have triggers throughout, please keep that in mind. Please read with caution.

Imagine that one day you wake up and no one is around in the bunker. Your fear kicks in as you begin to panic that everyone you've cared about and thought cared about you has left you. While having a panic attack, you don't notice Sam walking in and as he notices your state he rushes over to comfort you.
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++Reader POV++

I yawned as I sat up in my bed. I looked around my room before picking up my phone and looking at the time.

10:30 A.M.

Huh? I though to myself as I got out of bed to out on some comfy clothes on. Apparently we didn't have a hunt since the boys let me sleep in, but it seemed unusually quiet.

I shook my head brushing my worries off, maybe they slept in? After all Sam and Dean did deserve to get a little more sleep after having to function on two to three hours of sleep on other last hunt.

'Wouldn't Sam be up already?' The voice in the back of my head spoke, 'Your boyfriend always gets up early regardless. He likes early morning jogs.'

Dread filled me, it was true. Sam did wake up early to go to his daily healthy exercises before going and making himself a 'Protein Shake' or something. Maybe he and Dean left early not wanting to be around me anymore.

Tears filled my eyes before I took a deep breath attempting to calm myself down. I shouldn't assume that so quickly-- Maybe Sam went to the store to get a few things and forgot to leave a note?

I nodded taking another deep breath. Walking out of my room, I walked around the bunker calling out of boyfriend's and his brother's name, after not finding them in their rooms to the places they usually would be.

"Sam!? Dean!?" I called out double checking all the rooms they could potentially be in.

I walked into the library and sat down, "Maybe it's just a prank," I mumbled to myself.

I closed my eyes, as I felt all of my negative emotions settle in. I looked around me and everything seemed to be closing in on me.

This was it. I'm alone. Seems like no one wants to stick around, or everyone who does gets killed. And it's all my fault....

I started to feel a little nauseated, as I felt my breathing become shorter. Everything was my fault, maybe that's why I'm always being left alone.

I deserve to be alone, yet I don't want to. I don't want to be left alone with myself, my destructive thoughts. Alone for the darkness to swallow me whole.

I closed my eyes tightly trying to calm myself down, yet I couldn't.

"(Y/N)?" I heard a voice which sounded familiar ask. Everything sounded like it was under water or muffled.

"(Y/N)!? Hey! Hey! Look at me, it's okay. Take a deep breaths," Sam ordered as I slowly opened my eyes and looked over at him.

I tried doing as he told me to do, but it grew harder to do so. I shook my head at him as slight tears filled my eyes, as I looked over at Sam. If he didn't leave, he sure would now. After all I didn't plan for him to see my disappointing weaker side.

"Hey, Just follow my breathing tempo and heart," He suggested as he slowly, lovingly, and carefully placed me into his lap.

I could feel the beat of his heart, slow and steady. Same with my Moose's breathing. I closed my eyes and concentrated on slowing down my breathing.

After many minutes of silence, as I slowly started the progress of getting away from my attack.

"(Y/N), I have something to tell or ask of you," Sam spoke breaking the silence.

I stiffened but nodded, "Okay...Go on.."

"I know you just had a panic attack, but may I ask what triggered it? I want to know and its okay if you can't talk about it right away. I still love you always know that and I just want to know because I want to help you. "

I slowly nodded, "I have Monophobia.....The fear of being alone...."

Sam nodded before he turned me towards him, "From now on, can you promise to come to me if you ever start feeling this way. Or you just need support and company."

"Can't exactly promise that, Sam." I said softly before I saw a flash of worry and hurt on his face, "I can try, Sam. I'll try for you."

Sam gave a small smile and nodded hugging me, "I'll be by your side until the end...not even that.....I'll be by your side forever." He vowed making me smile.

"Ditto, Moose."

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Hello! I hope you enjoyed this imagine and sorry for the instant mood change from the other imagine to this one. Also sorry if anything was overly triggering in this. I did some research to make it not fake as I know there are people who have this phobia and suffer from mental illness.

Anyways hope you liked it and until next time my fellow kits!

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