"Kels? Why you at my door? How do you even know where I stay? You disrespectful as fuck you!" I was about to punch her until she grabbed my arm and stopped it.
"Ian come here to fight Erin. I came here to apologize for the last few days." she said with her head down. She seemed like she meant it. "Yea whatever." I was getting ready to slam the door but she quickly put her foot in the way to stop it. "Yo what the fuck? You apologized, I said Ok..What the fuck else you gotta say?" I was growing mad. Before you knew it she grabbed my face, and deeply kissed me. I couldn't help it but I kind of liked it. I didn't want her to know though so I pushed her face away.
"Why the fuck would you do that man?" I looked at her in disgust. She didn't say anything but gave me an envelope and walked off. This bitch gone kiss me without warning me, he give me some bullshit note? I slammed the door and made sure it was locked. I opened the envelope and there sat $500 dollars. I grew even more confused. "She gave it back?" I said scratching my head.
I put the money in my pocket and went to the kitchen and made me and my mom some dinner. I was starving for some reason. I realized I didn't eat when I got home, so that's why I was so hungry. A couple minutes later, I heard the door close. It was my mother. "Hey ma! Dinner is on the table." She looked like she had been crying. She looked drunk too. When she thought about my brother too much, she'd leave and go to a bar after work and get sloppy drunk, knowing that she can't hold liquor.
"Hey Baaaaaby!" her words slurred assuring me that she was indeed drunk. I quickly got up and helped her to the kitchen. "You need to eat some ma" I motioned her to eat the dinner I fixed. She looked at the plate and smashed it on the floor. "I don't want to eat Erick! I want you back!"
She just called me my brothers name? That's the first time she's ever done that. I looked at her with tears filling in my eyes. "Ma you're drunk. Just go to bed!" I carried her to her room. "I want my baby back Erin! He's gone and he ain't coming back!" she dug her head into my arms. "I know but Ma you have me." She slowly raised her head and what she did next surprised me. She slapped me. She has never hit me ever. "You ain't Erick! He was my only son Erin! My only son!"
I looked at her unable to hold the tears back. "You mean to tell me, that if it was the other way around, you wouldn't give a fuck about me? I'm your only daughter too remember!?" I was hurt. So hurt that I stormed out the house. I crunk my car up ready to go wherever the car took me. I drove for what seemed like hours and stopped in some unknown town. I sat there and cried. How could my mom say those things and on top of that hit me? I knew she was hurt about Erick, hell so was I! I cried for what seemed like hours until a knock on my window startled me.
"Kels?" I rolled my window down. "What you want? Make my life worst more? Go away Kels." What she did next really topped it. She walked over to the drivers seat and sat there and stared.
"I'm not going to do anything to you, and before you even say I followed you..I stay right across the street and noticed your car."
I looked at her with my puffy eyes and just nodded. I had no energy to do anything else but nod. She grabbed my hand and lifted my head with her other hand. I tried to pull away but she tightened her grip so I left it alone.
"Talk to me. What's wrong? I wanna be here for you."
I looked at her and was hesitant for a bit. I tried to speak but nothing came out. "It's okay Erin I promise. Just because I look like this bad person, I have a heart." she said wiping my face. After I done beat her ass twice and verbally abused her, she was here comforting me. Why do I feel tingly? I don't even like studs! I began talking about my brother and what my mom did not too long ago.
