ranting rachel

apologies my friends

hey guys it's been a while. and that's totally my fault. i've been shutting a lot of people out and that was mostly you guys and the queendom.

there shouldn't be any excuse for the way i've acted. a lot of you probably think i'm the worst. and that's ok. i haven't been the greatest friend or writer recently.

nobody really wants to hear me rant about myself but that's what this book is for so yeah.

i push many people away. and i don't show emotions a lot of the time. it's an act to make everyone think i'm ok even if i'm dying inside. and it's really getting to me.

i don't want to do that to the people on here. you guys read the crap i write even if you don't care, and some of you are really good friends too. you all are some of the most sweetest people i've met and i hope you still think i'm an ok person.

thank you for understanding. i'm sorry.