i want you here with me [l.s]

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"I'm tr-trying,"Edward begins,"so hard."his voice cracks. He lets his head call fall down into his palms, he could hear the writing of pen on the psort and occasional clink of metal.

"But you still think about him,correct?"She asks her glasses fallen down on her nose. She started at the boy in front of her waiting for a reply.

"Of course."Edward lifts his head up. "But not like that...just how much I miss him and all the shit I put him through for my own selfish needs."

The women, Mrs.Douglas, clears her throat at his language. "You were diagnosed with bipolar disorder at the age of twelve."She begins reading over the paper in her hands. "This in no way excuses what you've done to your brother, harry. But it might be the reason you snapping easily and yelling at him at unwanted times."

"Your mood swings were less extreme than a full manic episode known as hypomania.."She continued also writing things down. "You're very behavioral so that might explain the excessve desire for sex all the time...with harry."She coughs.

Mrs.douglas paused taking a sip of her water offering Edward an unopened bottle, he declined. Once she could speak more clearly she started up again. Going over the sytompons of Edwards bipolar disorder as if he haven't known all this, he's been through it so many times with his mother and doctors.

He didn't need her to explain it all again. He was here to get help although he didn't want to he be here at all he needed a place to live, no way in hell would their mum let him stay without seeking help.

It had been two days since harry called. Edward was glad he had the strength to hang up and block the number, he missed harry so much but he couldn't continue what happened for so many years.

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Harry sighs throwing his dollies to the side he no longer had the desire to play with them anymore. He was less cheery and slept most times, zayn and liam tried taking him out more while Louis worked and looked for apartments.

He'd be good for a few hours until he actually had time to think about everything. Harry was still confused as to why everyone drove him away from edward, all brothers have fun and become boyfriends, just like Edward said when they were thirteen.

Harry just wished everyone would leave them alone. He was perfectly fine with Edward, yeah sometimes Edward snapped at him for no reason at all or tried to have fun with him when he didn't want to but it's okay because Edward loves him and wouldn't do anything to hurt him.

"Harry."Louis crouches down at Harry's side tilting the frowning boys chin up so he can look him in the eyes, "You doing alright bub?"

Harry shakes his head no his tangled curls swaying in the process, he hadn't comb them in a while. Harry brings his knees to his chest, "I just want to see ed-Eddie."he rests his head on his knees willing himself not to cry, Edward wouldn't want him too but it was just so hard and confusing for him

Louis joins him on the fall sitting criss cross appled sauce, "You can't see him harry."He creases the boys cheek.

"It's just not fair."Harry murmurs kneeling into the touch. "They made me leave him Lou Lou and no one wants me to talk to him."He looks up at Louis, "We had fun too and no one forcing you to leave or stop talking to me."

Louis gawns at his bottom lip, "What I did was also wrong harry...i should of never done that with you. You're much younger and didn't understand what we were really doing."Louis tells him, "I get that now...possibly if Edward also understands that and gets help you'll be able to see him again."Louis lies, he knew no one would actually let harry see Edward again.

"When I'm older and have tons of money I'm going to get Eddie and we're going to move away where no one can take him again."Harry yawns, "I promise."

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I actually searched up bipolar disorder and read about it so the information wouldn't be complete bullshit, please feel free to correct me on anything I've got wrong. I dont think its that common to be diagnosed with it at the age of twelve but just go along cause they're only sixteen. (My apologies if I offended someone , please let me know)