the searing pain rolls down my chest,
the searing pain of loss,
the searing pain of death,
the realisation that you wont be there tomorrow,
or the day after that,
the sour feeling of sorrow,
how loosing you has darkened all of my tomorrows.
i still cant come to terms with the fact that you are gone,
i keep thinking i'll see you in the morning,
standing out on the lawn,
with a hand full of flowers,
just like you've been doing for years,
begging me for forgiveness,
apologizing for all my tears,
but i thought i'd make you wait,
thought you deserved to feel the sorrow,
thought you deserved to think you'd lost me,
and that i wasn't going to be apart of your tomorrow's,
and i said i'd forgive you some day,
the next day or the next,
but now you wont be in any of my tomorrow's,
and now there's nothing i can do to change that,
so as i imagine my life without you,
holding back my tears,
i'd tell that i forgave you,
and I'm sorry,
for waiting,
all those years.
