It all started in those days when i would tumble myself for a decision highly depending upon the reactions of people around me, confusing and controlling myself.
During some pre- social engagements , things started falling apart, I became a bug fixed highly stable process oriented being, losing the responsibilities of being or acting like a good being among people.
Straight forward is all I saw, though i say lies then and there, just to cover my laziness up, people still wondered how stupid I could be to be that stupid.
To be clear, I've never been the guy they've wanted me to be, or they dreamt of, my life is a rumbling rock down course of the mountain, could change the path anytime, all i wanted is to be prepared enough to handle situations, those aren't anticipated.
A sportive, 'just like that' behaviour was required to satisfy the above said "handling the situations, perfectly" condition. This gradually developed on the guy who people thought, to be the dumbest, silent, idiotic, fanatic, irritative boy.
So illustrating in a perfect scenario, you plant a seed and water it daily, as long as you monitored, the seed never responded to you. One day after a month or so, you see the seed to be a plant, you never thought would rise.
And that was a progressive change with me after all those emotional outcome, i ever had.
Bored of seeing the world with what was taught to me. i moved my perspective to some angle, and all i had was questions!!!
