Flawless, Isn't Our Thing- Zane x Reader [Sequel To - Just Give Me A Reason]

Chapter 4

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Through the darkness,my eyes caught a light source.A frozen moment,a frozen picture of Zane.

The picture showed Zane awake in the middle of the night,the atmosphere deep and looking dim in the reflection in his icy blue eyes.He looked tired as ever,like sleep became his worst fear or enemy that he refused to face.Books were scattered on his work table and on his hard wooden floor,he was searching for something.His hands were placed on his head as his finger got lost in his dark hair,which had a small glow from the candles he lit.The cold ice in his eyes was melting,as his cheeks got stained.

I couldn't do anything but wish to pull him in my embrace and never let him go.Never release him again,never separate from him.I just wanted to look him in his enchanted beautiful eyes and tell him everything that happened.Everything that has happened to him,through all of these years,has been my faul.At least half.

"Zane."I whispered under my breath as nothing happened.

Wherever I was,it was quiet,like the world got muted.All my eyes showed me was lost darkness that gave my chest an empty feeling,a feeling that was known too well.I never faced it right on hand,I just kept running from it.I kept hiding from the flaws of this world.I didn't and to this day,still don't,have the courage to face it.It was the feeling of loss and absent hope.Despair.

I fell on my knees as my vision turned into crystals,making it hard to see around myself.But there wasn't much to see either,only a shaky picture of the person that I hurt the most,and the darkness that has it's grip and strong invisible embrace on both of us.Slowly but surely moving us further away from the truth,and back onto the sinner's side.Which we still held onto a bit,just a slight bit of it stayed in our pockets.Not being able to see the light.

"Just talk to me,I need to hear your voice."I pleaded as my legs started giving up because of the weight that was felt on my chest.

"Just one word,Zane.Anything will be fine,"at this point I was soaking in my own tears,"I don't care if I'm foolish,I'll be anything you want me to be,just speak to me."

I held onto my weak knees as my knuckles turned white,almost shaking at the emotions that took control of me.My head was drain of thoughts and wishes.

"Yell at me."I cried as my head touched the black surface,warm on the first touch,yet cold as you don't move."Zane,just raise your voice on me.I can't help it,"

Even my crying was almost muted,the only reason of such words is because the pain was so much heavier and louder than anything here.I had the urge to scream,and then maybe I could finally calm my racing heart down.Yet,I decided not to.I decided to mute everything.My feelings.My beating heart.Even my own cries for help.

I pushed my hand onto the picture as some light seeped through it,instantly blinding me.

"What?"I mumbled as I looked around,my lips formed a smile when I saw a figure in front of me.

"It's fine,you're alright now."

"Enki,I don't know what to do!I came here thinking I had it all in my hand,but I didn't.I came unprepared and clueless,"I cried as Enki put his hand on my shoulder.

"Are you a part of the Divine Warriors because you gave up?"he asked as his voice was covored in a calm tone.

"I don't know anymore,I don't know what is real in my life.Or what life of mine was real,"I said as it all ended in a cold whisper.

"It was all real,you just haven't accepted it."he sad as he got lighter and kept fading into the darkness.

"Accept it?How do I do that?"I yelled as he gave me his signature smirk.

"Hey,I'm one of you!You can't leave me in riddles!"I yelled as I heard a high pitched noise,and then my eyes were shut.

[End of Chapter 4]

This took so long to write,but I'm really happy how it turned out!

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