Soukoku:Wine and Stitches

Chapter 4

Journal Entry #3

7-8-XXXX

It was a rather dim and quiet morning,the only sound heard was the gentle droplets of rain tapping against the window...I woke up under the warm,soft covers of my bed,I groaned as the same sick and painful feeling was still fresh within my body...It was even worse than the gashes and wounds that covered my body,Now I earned myself a black eye...I didnt want to wake up...I wanted to stay in bed...I was heating up...My damp sweat-coated brown locks rested on my face...I was getting a fever...but who cares? Its not like I just signed a death sentence the other day...I sighed as I shifted in bed...Recalling the harsh events from the day before...it was much more harsher than the other night..But I had to please my ruthless master who held no remorse whatsoever...What was I thinking?...I cursed my self...tsk why did I have to be such a coward? I covered my face in shame and embarrassment... Yet again...I had nothing against Chuuya anyways...Back when I was nothing but a street rat...no one gave me a second glance...I felt unneeded...I felt empty.. But with the redhead..He atleast made me feel something...

Finni Entreé

The door swung open and the Brunette froze under the covers,as he heard the inching footsteps approaching him...He tried pretending to be asleep...

"I know you're awake..."

It was the ginger's emotionless yet smooth voice,He started to shake in fear that he would get in trouble again...he slowly rose and sat up,only to see the ginger sitting on a chair backwards facing him,his face was blank,Dazai gulped and gripped the sheets in terror...

"I'm...I'm Sorry Ch--Master...I just feel...sick today"

They stared at each other in silence for a few seconds,The vast silence was cut with the ginger's long sigh,He stood up and sat on the bed,making Dazai flinch alittle...Chuuya examined the other's sickly structure...pale brittle skin covered in bruises and stitches...sleepless eyes...messy brown hair damp with sweat...and that nasty huge black eye...the ginger's face remained expressionless...empty...but he inched closer,making the brunette tremble...Much to Dazai's surprise...The ginger didnt hurt him... Instead,He checked the brunette's temparature with the back of his hand...

"Hmm...well you are burning up...Tsk"

Dazai looked down and shut his eyes,expecting to be punished once more...instead...he was gently pushed back to lay down,The brunette simply stared at the ginger with surprise though Chuuya just watched him in a cold stare...

"Get some rest...I will get you something to eat..."

Just by the sound of it,Dazai whined as he recalled what happened yesterday...Chuuya simply gave a light smile.

"Don't worry I'll make sure it wont be drugged anymore"

The brunette blinked as he looked at the ginger...why was he being so kind all of a sudden?Was he going to trick him again?Was Chuuya going to hurt him again?He didn't know if he should trust that smile anymore...he was confused...he didnt know if he was being sincere or if he was just doing those things because he didnt want to let the mafia know what he was hurting the brunette...tears started to flow his eyes...before Chuuya could leave he noticed the tears sliding down Dazai's cheeks...he raised an eyebrow and watched the brunette immediately wipe his eyes in fear of getting hurt.

"I-I'm sorry I--"

"Tsk...what a softy..."

Dazai gulped as Chuuya stood up and leave the room...he started hyperventilating...he was going to come back with something painful for sure..he covered himself with the blanket...he was trembling...soon the door swung open once again...

"Get up"

Dazai knew if he wouldn't do what he was told...he slowly sat up and faced Chuuya...the ginger was holding a tray of soup and a glass of water and a med kit...

"M-mast--"

"Shh...Eat and Let me work..."

The brunette went quiet as the ginger placed the tray on a pillow and brought it to his lap,proceeding to apply bandages on his black eye to cover it up,Dazai ate in silence...altough his body denied it,he forced the food in his stomach...

"Chuuya.."

"What?Can't you just eat in silence?"

"If they find out...W-will you kill me?"

The ginger didn't reply as he finished covering up the black eye,this worried the brunette,but before he could apologize...

"It depends....But I won't assure you that You're not gonna die..."

"Do you hate me?"

Dazai knew that deep within the eyes of the ginger,Chuuya did hate him...but he didn't want to assume..If he were to be honest...Dazai didn't understand the concept of what feelings were...he didnt know how it felt to be happy...he didnt know what love was exactly...but he knew how it was to be hated and lied to...His eyes started to water but he tried holding back tears...He grew attached to the ginger...he didnt want Chuuya to hate him...he then flinched as he felt a warm hand gently carress his cheek,he looked up and his brown orbs met with soothing blue orbs...he blushed as the other gave a warm smile...before he could speak..he was greeted with a soft yet bittersweet kiss upon his lips...his eyes widened in surprise...this was their first kiss afterall,might as well make the most of it...he closed his eyes and kissed back,he then felt the ginger's delicate hands interlock with his own,they both shared a passionate kiss...only to be broken for air...sadly,Dazai knew that it was all an act...

"Does that answer your question?"

He gave a nod as he blushed brightly...he knew that it was a lie...he knew that the ginger didnt actually bare feelings for him at all...but he pretended it to be real...for his own sake...he didnt want to accept the fact that nobody wanted him...the sad reality of this relationship was that they were fooling each other...faking their own true intentions but pretended it was okay...They took another step further with this crooked relationship...it was reality but Dazai still loved him...